LJ

Your obscenity nauseates me.

PMS-ing.
Sorry, don't mind me.

Corby!

-hides in a corner and cries-

What's with the sudden eagerness to climb onto the stage of attention? You can even pretend to value their everything at the expense of mine. Where are you, friend?

:B

Hello!
As usual, i'm a blood feeding machine and back with 20 glorious bites. :)

Too much to say. Long story cut short (a phrase many many people used in camp in their stories), this is the best camp i've ever been to.

To Yam Jia Xian (because i can't comment on your blog and just in case you're reading here): Am i supposed to be happy that you mentioned me twice in your post, or to feel sad that you're condemning me? :) Plus, you're the only one i sent a goodbye sms, so, learn to appreciate!

BYE

Bye, with a last game of Spider.

Omg i'm like so scared that i think i can just collapse on the floor now. High elements! :(

Campady campady camp!

Oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I just realised i'm gonna be going to that stupid campsite which harvests insects for a living.

Don't you remember my 36 lovely bites?

Nevertheless, that's not what's making me trembling on my knees. We have absolutely no idea of the itinerary, and WHAT IF there's high elements! :O

Guess what, i bought goggles and some sports shoes. Because my fabulous mom broke the other 2 pairs. Anyway, it's time to say bye bye to those ancient shoes. My gorgeous new pair is in funky orange. Please tell me you're jealous. Not as loud as red, but equally

BOOMZ.

I should try to make it a little dirty now, so i won't feel so sad when i dirty it in camp. ;) Anyway, it was the cheapest Adidas i could find there. Cheaper ones are those you haven't even heard of in your entire lifetime.

Chinese!

If love between both sides can last for aye, why need they stay together night and day?

两情若是久长时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。

And, i found my favourite one!

风声雨声读书声声声入耳，家事国事天下事事事关心。

It's nice to read, easy to remember, and it's so cute!

This is so gonna be the most valuable post of the century. >:) A pity that my stupid computer can't type chinese, otherwise, i'd be typing everything in chinese!

A distant journey tests the strength of a horse and a long task proves the character of a man.

路遥知马力，日久见人心。



Month after month, and year after year, the flower resembles but people differs.

年年岁岁花相似，岁岁年年人不同。

We should all treasure our youth. :)

Sweet

From now on, i shall keep taking pictures, because the year is ending. I need more happy memories. :)

And i can't wait for new year! Because i can set my new year resolutions, and... my sixteenth will come soon! Okay fine, i'm not really look forward to it.


ps. FOOD IS EVIL

Fantastic

I need to colour up this space.

I can't wait to officially exempt myself from school!

And somebody needs to cuff my hands, otherwise, i'll be another impulse woman who's gonna cut her hair freaking short. (Looks at yam.)

Or should i just, bald it? My hair takes a gazillion years to grow an inch. Well, not exactly either. Tee.

I want money to shop! No, i must save money for a lappy! For the sake of that lappy case, i must save up for a lappy first. :)



-GASP-

It

Deep down inside, you know you just care about yourself.
So, be in no position to judge me.

Some times things just can't go your way. Why not just stop, think of the consequences then act? You don't just do it for the sake of doing it, for the sake of gaining recognition, or for the sake of being great.

That is why i say, it was a blessing in disguise.

Sinking

I was rather (very) happy just now.

But now, it's just going down
down
down
down
down again. :(

You don't know how frustrating it is when people just keep pressing you for something, especially when there's nothing much you can do but to wait and endure all the tingy-ness in your poor little heart.


Right now, i just to plop into my bed and embrace the journey into my dreamland. And, homework tomorrow! :( I have an endless amount of work to do any moment. Not exactly tired, just, irritated.

PS. I love the proverb in my previous post, because, it's something i learned from TV! :) Yay, TV rocks!

忍一时风平浪静， 退一歩海阔天空。

那我又要忍到何时， 退到何处呢？

Tell me why

Everybody is so deprived now. Even my sis just went for some job interview. FYI, she's 14. I bet she'll break 6 glasses, 10 plates and 5 bowls in 1 week.

You don't understand the joy of earning your own money. I'd rather be working than to study!

I can't wait to grow up.

PS. Zone 1 T-Shirt Designing Comp. pictures are up on FB. If you're smart enough to find it, good for you! My group got 3rd! :) Even though yammy's got 1st, i'm not jealous! Hahahahaha! ;)

Ring Ding Dong

Hahahahaha! He should exist in Singapore.

Saving up for a lappy. :) WITH MY OWN MONEY. Well, not exactly. Since most of it will come from red packets.

I should get a job.

Meanie!

Superficial - that's you.

I don't really care about what you think of me, and i can't be bothered to explain either. If you can learn something and hate me for the rest of your life, i'd rather be mean.

Because, I am mean.

Through

Finally, my blog is still.

Having nothing to blog about don't mean there's nothing to say. In fact, i have a lot to say. But, oh well.

I don't believe in miracles, anymore.

Afterall, you don't understand me. Maybe you did, but that's the past. And perhaps you shouldn't think so highly of yourself, because you can't get the best of both worlds. All i knew was i did a very wrong thing, and you did something worse.

Hello world!

You were thissss close to not being able to see me in your life again. But i'm still well alive, sad for you.

My cramps almost killed me. I treated myself for fainting. You should've just seen me shivering and sweating in bed. D:

Bipolarrrrrrrrr

Even if i find it such a waste, it cannot be undone.

I dug out this stack of letters from this (rather) abandoned box, and i read many things which i wished i could go back to my good ol' days. I realised most of them did mention about the future, how we(?) had to do this and that together next time. Sometimes, we can't really predict the future, isn't it.

Beautiful cards, pretty pictures, they were all meant for the most perfect future. But now, i just want it to be the perfect memory.

It really, really doesn't bother me anymore. Even if it seemed sarcastic to you, i meant it in a truthful way. I never cared about what i say anyway, don't i?

And, i realised that the person i hated the most was the one i loved the most, afterall. Even though it's not apparent, it is. And nobody can be spot on with their first guess, not even you, yammy, hahahahaha!

Nevertheless, i must still open up my heart and eyes to the people around me, really sticking through things with me. Sometimes i really can't express my love, but i don't need to say it right? :)

I hope i'm not having bipolar. (Predict my new braces colour! :B)

And omgosh i can't stand it that i really love listening to english oldies. Selective ones. :)


Hold me now. It's hard for me to say "I'm sorry".

Maybe i shouldn't have let go.

Emptiness

I have a very very very sad news but, i shall not talk about it. >:(

I don't really know what i'm gonna write about today, just felt the need to type something and update. Oh, i'm changing my braces colour tomorrow. Hmmmmmmm...

I can't wait for next Thursdayyyyy! Please don't rain. :( And please don't let the period come. :(

:)

I FAILED GEOG.

After crossing the BIO hurdle. I'm very certain my L1R5 will hit 20, so world, stop complaining about not getting 80s or 90s.

I need to gravely alter my habits and work harder next year. Be in anticipation. Can't wait for the day i'm gonna scream, GOODBYE SECONDARY. Even though JC will be even more tough (provided i even get into a good JC, or even just a JC), i can't wait to grow up and venture a new life.

The education system rocks my toes, i absolutely (L) it.

Contradictory

Every morning i'll wake up thinking about how life sucks. Every night i'll lie down appreciating life. How, contradictory.

I like to tell myself, everything that i went through since months ago is like a blessing. If everything went on like it used to be, i wouldn't have ventured into a whole new world of thinking. Sometimes i think i should've taken lit, but once again, if i had taken lit, it may be a different story.

I'd like to classify this chapter of my life as the most crucial point. I don't know if i had grown up, or became more childish.

I want to give the best i can to people, and again, i wished i was a robot. A robot with a more dynamic system - one moment you concentrate on work affairs, next moment on your personal feelings, next moment on your friends, next moment on your family etc. But no, i'm made as a human and i work as one. Such an emotional turmoil takes its effect over everything else, and i can't perform what my best(est) should be.

I suspect satisfying others has become part of my daily routine. I don't mind, but in the end it just screws up because people just love to look at me from that critical angle. What they see is just beyond me, they don't really see through me. And the worst, worst, WORST thing ever people can think of me is that i like to wallow in self pity.

LIKE HELLO? I hate it when people pity me, and i, myself, am always disgusted when people think that i pity myself. Oh yes, sure. I pity myself for having such an idiot like you in my life. Can you just see the clear distinct line between self-pity and self-reflection, no?

And next, why should you even care if i like to reflect on my life. Emotional as it may sound, i can't help it that my life really rocks right?

Lastly, i'm not as pathetic as you think i am. For that magnitude of weakness i have, i'm that amount stronger. And you don't know how weak/strong am i, because you're not God.

If you do believe that He creates tests for us based on our abilities, on that, you can guage, yes?


Btw, i'm chewing on bubble gum. Be jealous. And i can't upload pictures, because blogger is clogged.

If...

If that's for me, i'm completely disappointed.

Stop

All you care is about yourself, how you feel, are you look, and what are you.

Can you just freaking get your stupid eyes off yourself and take a good look at others? All you do is to squeeze the goodness out of yourself, what about others? You don't know what people say about you, or maybe you did, and can't you just accept it? Your goodness is not overwhelming this entire globe, not and never. Stop deluding yourself. Why do you expect people to change for you, when YOU, YOU CAN'T CHANGE FOR OTHERS! Do you even know what do people think of you, what your BEST FRIENDS think of you? Duh, you don't. That has always been what your best friends do, no? Bitch and bitch and turn 180 back to suck your toes. Get a life!

If you still had a heart, do something to preserve this happy little image i have for you. It's slowly fading, for all that you've done. Your happiness makes me sad. Why? Because i can't make myself feel happy for you.

You're like this little innocent kid and i really sympathize with you. I don't really want to see you experiencing what i'm experiencing now. It's horrible, big time.

Ultimateeeeeee!

Surprisingly i'm up at this hour!

No, i woke up way earlier. Reason is, duh, i slept through the whole of yesterday since i came back home at 6pm. I was soooooooooooo tired! Especially when our class was so special to have math extras, i almost really dosed off. As usual, Q was so cute and nice to grant us an early dismissal, wayyyyyyyyyy earlier.

Now, my face is burning, PLEASE DON'T TURN BLACKKKK! :( Or red!

Yesterday's ultimate frisbee was the most ultimate. I sprained my ankle, or should i say twisted it? Cause it's neither swelling nor hurting, unless i turn it at this particular angle. WHICH MEANS, i cannot sit my favourite way to sit! :( And because of my ankle i couldn't play frisbee anymore, BOO BOO.

No more games next year, means no more floorball too! D:

I shall go for the flashmob later. :) If mom allows.

Love it, hate it.
Let me hate you, will you?









Urghhhhh! I'm feeling super horrible now.
I wasn't wrong about it. I had always been the oddy.

I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care. I will not care.

I will not care. :)

Goodies

F(2NE1) again. With awesome goodies.





I have a thing for small heart necklaces lately. :B


And look at this! Cute! I like. :P


I like colourful things. If i see it in the stores, i think i'll buy it. Yum yum. :D

This is a very typical possession of people like me. But it don't really last - it goes MIA after awhile. >:)



Why doesn't Singapore has snow! :( (I know Singapore's on the equator like duh, just let me fantasizeeeeee hahaha!)





I wanted you to check this out! PCK should ditch his boring yellow boots to this, with zebra pwints!



There's more to come! Especially things with flowers, because i love flowers. :)



Only strong friendships last; weak ones give up.

Button up!

I went to F21 and i wanted to die. Hahaha, not really. I just had a lot i wished i could buy! :(










I realised almost everything is plaid! It wasn't on purpose.

Anyway, shirts for today. I've got a very very very cool boots which i would recommend to PCK in memory of R. Low!


I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore. I must not buy junks from bugis anymore.

Electricity

I realised i we can't live without electricity after living with it for soooooooooooo long!

There was a cut in electricity today. It was fine for the first 5 minutes, after that, i got irritated. No TV, no computer, no opening of fridge, no fan, nothing! Until i became smart and used the laptop. I was even smarter to expect no internet connection, after all, i was just interested in my Spider Solitaire. :D


If you think you're smart and suggest that i tap into other people's internet, i'll tell you why not.

1. There's no electricity for the whole block/area, so where could i find lines to tap into? :(

2. IT'S ILLEGAL! :O


I also wouldn't want to go somewhere else/leave the house because i definitely wouldn't want to walk down 16x2 flights of stairs.


PS. Ignore my tumblr, it's dead.

Genius!

Fortune Teller Genius on FB rocks!
You all should go try in hahaha!

Apparently almost everyone else did well for history, except me! :( I want the gift of being able to write faster!

I can imagine myself getting back my papers, look at my marks and feel my heart sinking in. And then i'll see the whole world complaining about how low they got but they actually passed with flying colours. Why can't the world be more easily satisfied? It doesn't hurt to encourage yourself to work harder, than to keep forcing yourself to work harder, right?

I was never bothered with how badly i've done, but now, it feels different. Hmmm... but anyway it's over. After a-math i'll be freeeeee! No, not yet. We still cannot escape the clutches of extra lessons. >:(

Plus plus i realised i still have a lot of things to settle! Go me!

Yammy's Birthday

Happy belated birthday to YAMMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Hahaha, apparently you have a whole sack of nicknames.




I can't stand it that it's your birthday, so i have to reveal this unglam photo of yours. There's plenty more! >:) I thought of putting up your sec one photos, but but but, i shall save it for next year. Sweeeeeet sixteen aye!

BEWARE.

Wait for your present and awesomely-private-letter-cum-birthday card, which i hope won't take long! >:)



Emotional, evacuate.

Every day when you look in the mirror, you yearn to see your true self, the true you. But has it ever crossed your mind that, what you see in the mirror is you, the so-called "mask", and do you really think you can see what's inside the you in the mirror? We search aimlessly every day for our own true self, living in our own fallacies that we're showing what we're not. No, the true you is you, the one inside of you, and the one outside. Could we just bring ourselves to accept that we've changed. By attempting to pursue your supposedly "true self", you're just doing the impossible of turning back to clock to retrieve what you were in the past. Sometimes, we change so drastically that we too, are fooled by our outside appearance, thinking that it's just a mask.

Change can be something so scary, because it comes without telling anyone.

I, have changed so much that i don't even know who am i. I keep thinking of my true self, i want to be back to who i was, but nothing can actually bring me back to the innocent state of mind. After being exposed to so many things, maturity keeps trying to engulf my childishness, and this sucks because i don't want to be so theoretical and keep thinking i can solve my own problems and keep everything to myself, with occasional spillage of your inner feelings here and there. Those buckets in turn, think that you are just a self-depressive person who likes to ease your burden on others. Shall i enlighten you that that's because you don't love me enough? You can't force yourself to care for others and once you feel burdened, you know, you don't actually make up much of a confidant to me. I don't mind not sharing things with you, and shall i also ask that you don't try to care for me when you don't? Either you put your whole heart into it, or not. I have so much in my heart and mind, i really want to pour it out, at least not till the day i find my trustworthy confidant.

People love being happy, i do too. But just at the happiest moment, i would feel so scared that i would lose everything.

2 things

1. Biology rocks my life. Something you can't just go by logic, oh well.

2. I suddenly developed a liking for Kim Bum (yeaahh the one from BOF). But duh, not from that childish and boring show which almost every little girl would go ga ga over.

It's from East of Eden! It has such a tragic storyline that i get confused what my tears were shed for.



Eh, no. That's when he grows up, but i have yet to watched that part.
Since everyone knows how Kim Bum looks like, i shall not waste this space here. Furthermore, i couldn't find any pictures of him from the show itself, where the bruises and cuts on his face drives me emotionally insane.

This show is way better than gross BOF, which has an utterly boring and copied storyline. Even in the midst of exams and i should prefer to drown myself in the gorgeousness (not) of the 4 gay flowers instead of crying over the touching fatherly and brotherly love(s). But, no.

I go for depth, do you? Apparently not. :(

Study, again.

Did i tell you that my table became very gross? No, so i'm telling you now. School table.

After math paper, i had learnt my lesson that i should never do a paper with shaaakkkyy tables. Before my english paper, i realised i hadn't done anything to it, THEREFORE...

I followed esther. With a twist of her brains, she tore the excess paper under her table and stuff it under her table leg. How smart, and I did the same, for 3 legs. :) Anything living under it would think that some monster (or bats?) came to chew on the paper.

I'm finally colouring my posts.

Cool?

Oh yessssssss i finished my math paper. I went on and on finishing every single question even though i know i was gonna get the wrong answer.

I feel so deprived now. After EOYs i'm gonna browse F21 etc! :D

I'm not like some people who can brisk through the stupid paper. My brain works very slowly and, carelessly.

Seems like WOAH isn't a recognised English word. It never was anyway.

I can't sleep lately. Something's haunting me, i don't know.

I'm starting to feel the exam tension, which is kind of late? But seriously, i never felt any tension for exams, not even for PSLE. I tend to let it come and go, whether i score or not. But this time, it's different.

I don't know why. Probably by the fact that i'm right at the bottom of the class. I need to pull myself up again.

Buck up, idiot.

Nightmare

To everyone else, the new seating arrangement is nothing but a horror.
Well, to me, i wished it would stay on forever.

At least the people beside me don't ignore me, at least the people around me don't despise me (i suppose). And even if they do, they don't show it, which i like it that way. I am no longer tormented by the stress that everybody else is way ahead of me. Because they do come back and pull me along.

I hope.


Nevertheless, i screwed up my compo with an extremely good story line but extremely bad expression and structure. Because of the time, my last paragraph went, "I am mute. I love you mom."

FTW.


But i shall rejoice for the fact that HAMILTON WONNNNNNNNN! I know you know it, he's cute.

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONGZXZXZ!
Enjoy every single thing in your life ESPECIALLY F1! & seeing BSB? :D







On a side note,



Go HAMMY GO!

I'm not abandoning this space! :B
Wait till i have better things to brog about. Engrish on monday!


Shall i have a tagboard on tumblr?

tumblr

http://www.towardsgeekexcellence.tumblr.com/

Are you honoured, yammy?

Anyway it's just TRYING and, it's gonna be in a hiatus mood for a while.
Well, i thought tumblr was quite cute!

And then now i realised it was all fake.

Bleeding

-bangs head on wall-

1028 words

According to yammy, a picture says a thousand words. So, let's skip the mushy part and go straight to the point.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM YUMIN!

I love you. :3

Money cannot buy happiness.

I beg to differ.
Not because we're materialistic,
but reality is just so cruel.

FB

Told you! I knew i was gonna die in a car accident! Just, didn't know it'll be so long later. :(


*Just some FB rubbish.

Idiot

Went to Vivooooo today. And i bet i met (cool it rhymes) the worst cashier in my entire life.

To sum it up, all he did was to blabber rubbish and act like he had the best knowledge on canvas shoes. If he thought he was the most humorous man in my life, HE'S SO WRONG.

-winks at Jokwon-

When he asked me and my sis to fill up the feedback form, it seemed like he yearns so much for a promotion. I thought so hard to give a nice feedback on him (cause apparently he lacks of plus points). So... i wrote that he's friendly (yucks), funny? (check out my ?) and he had good product knowledge (pui).

Him: You know how to make your canvas shoes long lasting?
Me: Err, no?
Him: Don't wash it and don't brush it. You know why?
Me: Err, no?
Him: Because when you (yada yada yada)... friction (yada yada yada)... fabric (yada yada yada)... So when smelly that time, no choice, throw away.
Me: Err, yah.
Him: So you really listen to me throw away ah! Then wear one month smelly also throw away?!
Me: -laughs super fakely-



And i bought this. Check out the orangeeeeeeeee!

And oh, he almost cheated $6 out of me. >:)
And he said i was lack of vocab after i filled my form! >:( >:( >:(

I shouldn't have bought B&J's. Like argggggggggh! I hate wasting money on food! Besides, i have a widget on my phone which reads "Go On A Diet - Day 1". And i'm ruining my plans!

FYI, dieting plan not to make me skinnier, but to curb my binging habit.



If you remembered that i said i still had a thousand and one things to do, now i have a thousand left.

AND THE WHOLE WORLD IS STUDYING EXCEPT ME! I can't stand myself. I feel like living in the mountains now.



Arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm doomed for EOYs.

FB FB FB

I know you're sick of me talking about FB. But wait, you're in for a treat!

























































CUTE? Hahahahahahaha! Firstly, i look like a, platypus. Then, i look like a, rooster?! And finally, i look like i'm in an operating washing machine.




That's not it.

Swim or Sink?

Sometime this week i shall go swimming. Or more like, soaking myself in the pool.

Believe me, i really forgotten how to swim! I tried and i sank.



Off to chop garlic!

I know that you will come back.

:(

Unstarted

FB FTW!

FB is flooding my mailbox, and probably yours too!


Hmmm, seems like now you know it isn't easy being in that position?

Learn. Learn from our mistakes.

Studyyyyyyyyy

Ah! I need to study for EOYs!

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I haven't started.

Violation

I really like this picture. 0:)

I was probably too tired to mention something yesterday. Even though i'm still tired now...

I AM STILL TRAUMATISED BY WHOEVER WHO VIOLATED ME.




And on friday, i am going to witness the greatest change in my life! I'm getting my contacts, hahahahahaha! I almost died today when the person put it on and took it off for me. And he kept telling me not to cry. Well, i wasn't! I was just tearing.

35th FUN FACT ABOUT ME: Never dares to put eyedrops.

Now i dare, but i can't avoid blinking once every 1 second.

Discolouration

I like it when we all put aside how ugly we look and move on. :)
I like it when i see the best out of people. :)
And i love it when i am what i want to be. :D

So now, other than taking care of my poor little middle fingerzxzxzxz, i have to douse myself with gallons of pi pa gao and Strepsils!

Half of me tells me to be happy, the other forces me to be sad. Both for different matters.
I found my greatest fear.

PS. I have super super many many unglamorous photos! :B


I keep telling myself it's alright. But deep down i know, it's not.

Danger

I seem to have a thousand and one problems to think of each day. Or should i say, i've given up some?


Basketball is a VERY dangerous sport. To think i'm the sixth person in class to injure the middle finger. It's swelling, and i really need the finger to write! And, type.

Rainbow

My legs brought me to my closet and i found myself arranging my clothes. Into colours.

Now i see a nice array of colours and a big ugly patch of white. I have loads of yellow too. Fine, combined with my sister's, yellow is dominating my cupboard. (Neglecting white.)

My awesome ifartlikemad.bs.com is taken by someone who, locked it.

5 minutes of love

I'm obsessed with her cuteness.
Forget about the singing!

If i could clutch onto my pinafore and go slightly lopsided and tell chong "Happy Teachers' Day" with that cute lil voice, i betcha she'll have a crush on me! I would tell her i just turned 187 months old and flash my 187 fingers. I think i need my toes and hair too, though. If she asked me if i was from Sengkang, i'd say, "Uh, i'm from singaahpohre," and flash my sparkling teeth of shiny metal.

To end off, i would hold the humongous dustpan and run out of class to mummy (and pretend to have super small feet that my feet can't run in sync).

Self-conscious

Reading my past posts makes me feel like burying my head in the keyboard.
Sometimes i write things i know i'm gonna bang my head on the wall and regret later. But it's difficult to resist. Like how i could never resist the temptation of food. Yum.


I am going to make a pact with myself - never accidentally (or purposely) say the words damn, freaking and shit. Even if i'll take ten million years to think of a nice verb/noun in my sea of extremely limited vocabulary, i shall not use these sub-standard words. Or very most, i'll replace with very.

Let's try...

1. This is damn very cool!

2. This is freaking very stupid!

3. What the shit very?!?!?!

The last sentence doesn't make much sense. How about...
What a beautiful day this is!





You: PARIS HILTON STOLE MJ'S CORPSE!
Me: What a beautiful day this is!

Eating disorder

At this rate i'm eating, i'm gonna get diabetes, high cholesterol and coronary heart diseaseeeee.
Not to forget brain cancer too, since my phone always accompanies my head to sleep.


I'm a gone case.

Heartless

When you put your mind into something, put your heart in too.
That is when you give your best.

Insanity

re⋅spect [ri-spekt]

Esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability.

Everytime i thought i was gonna be better, it's the reverse.




"She is short and her face is round."
- Anonymous

Hahahaha, esther!

.

Perhaps i'm really tired after all.

Old

My posts are getting very short-winded nowadays.
So, am i just old, or exceptionally small young?

Every week's a brand new hope - a higher one.
In the end, it just falls back down.

Down,
Down,
Down,
Down,
Down...

When will i be surprised?

My secret conversation

CLAUDIA says:
Yesterday is history, today is a gift, tomorrow is a mystery. (I like this quote, it's cool!)


CLAUDIA says:
Since we can't change history and our gift from god, let's just embrace our next mystery and create a new history!

Don't worry, i love you! :D

Sometimes, hotmail drives me nuts.
So does mole c.

Amusement park

"If your idea of a role model is somebody who’s gonna preach to your kids that sex before marriage is wrong and cursing is wrong and women should be this and be that, then I’m not a role model. But if you want your girls to feel strong and intelligent and be outspoken and fight for what they think is right, then I want to be that type of role model, yeah.”


Megan Fox is such an amusement. Together with Leong, they can form an amusement park.

Dilation

I
Conclude
That
My
Fishballs
Are
Dilating.

Die lay tinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

Composure

"You make her sound as if she would pounce on you and tear off your flesh leaving behind nothing but a chalked outline of you on the floor if you were to meet her face to face."

- Leong Yan Yi



Amazing.

Struggling

Stand up from where you fall.

Let's not try to change history cause we can't. Instead, we shall embrace the mystery tomorrow. I know we can do much better. :)




I wished i needn't wear this mask. I want emotions.

X

This is the point where i tell you, professional teachers do should not let personal feelings interfere with their profession. Besides, i was commending them! :D

And i thought there would be generation gap; i'm not interested it their blogs either. (If they do have one.)






Midnight oil for SS! I hate ruining my plans with procrastination, but i can't help it.

Impromptu?

Omgeeeezz! (Okay, bimbo.)

A. Teo is super cute when he was young! :) Er, when he was sec 4?
Check him out: http://alexteoh.com/2008profile.htm


Zahhhh!
That's why wise old people always say,

"Beauty never last forever."

But molly has internal beauty, though. But her chubby cheeks tend to sink by the sides of her face when she's angry, thereby making her look less cute. So, she should stop being so petty and be pretty!




Do what I do.
Say what I say.

Scars and Memories.

Everybody has their own scar. And that is when the person decides to look at it as a memory, or a scar.

Enlightening much.

Let's look at my memories:
1. "Memory" of playing basketball in primary school.
2. "Memoriessssss" of feeding mozzies at Sec 3 Leadership Camp(saisite).
3. "Memory" of getting pushed at the playground was so fun, wheeee!
4. :)



How memorable.

COLD

WWW with yammy and york yesterday was fun! Hahahaha!

It was totally random and sudden. In primary school, we would take weeks to plan a trip to downtown. Not anymore! :P

Seems like Pasta Mania kind of sucks after all. But they served food super fast!
Linguine, hahahahaha!
And maccheroni is super lame. I still think mah-chae-roh-nee sounds nicer than mah-ke-roh-nee. :)






It's been long since i last became myself.

Kind of, disappointed.

FLASH FLOOD!

Today's BIO SPA is the bombzxzxzxzxz. I really mean, bomb.

Tap burst, rain occured in the lab, eroded the ceiling, ruined my hard-burnt cashew nut, flooded our tables, washed the floor, soaked our uniform (and worksheets).

Hilarious to see many many people crowding at my bench's sink, stick all the hands out and squish the tap.

Everything ended when the water supply was cut off. :(

TO YAMMY: Why must you involve the H1N1 virus in your objectives!





I'm doing something super stupid now. I should've just slept to escape from this!

I am happy with what i have now, and are you just bent on robbing away this little happiness i have? You already have everything you want, undivided love, happiness and happiness. So what is it of me that you just can't stop being pissed about? You have everything i don't, and count yourself blessed on that. I have nothing more for you. And i don't see what's wrong with whatever i'm doing.




RULE OF THE GAME: We must spin 5 rounds before taking a quick shot of nature.


Yammy's.


Mine.


Thanks! I know mine's the nicer one. :)

I can't wait to reveal something! >:) >:) >:) >:) >:)
It's super cool!

National Day Picturessss!

Don't i look UBBBBBBBBER CUTE in this! :D
This is gonna be my next specs. Hahahahahaha!

Hahaha! There's much more. But i think the last picture is best enough to say everything.

-pouts-

I am the most awesome person existing.

My supposedly short nap yesterday somehow, extended to a good 9 hours.

Conclusion: The patriotic me missed NDP'09 and the 8.22PM pledge. :( And Singapore Idol! :(

I wanted so badly to see how the people made a fool of themselves. The worst thing is, i had all my homework undone and i'm stuck with it now.


Do you know how much i love math? NOT THIS NANO-BIT. At all!

UP!

I watched UP! :) With joan, yesterday.

It's cute, funny, sad and, sad. A great show to watch, but i don't think it worth my $6.50. :P



Here my reason to why pledge taking is gonna be at 8.22PM.

Why 22?
Because 44 divided by 2 equals to 22.

Why 8?
Because 44 divided by 22 and multiplied by 4 equals to 8.


Say i'm smart! :D




Some day, we shall take a nice, decent photo instead of being such retards. But i think this is decent enough - we're so cute!

Puffy puffy eyes.

Have to wake up superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr early tom! D:

Reluctance, reluctance.



Anyway, i threw it away in the end.
Because, i still cannot bring myself to forgive. Not to mention, forget.
But i shall have the happy memories linger within me. :)




Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I still have many many many gross math homework to do!

RAH!

Once again, i'm fretting over what bottom to wear tom.

I think i'm gonna get a nice bermudas soon for next year to wear. :B Maybe i'll continue to dig my house and perhaps, i'll find a berm to wear! :D :D :D



Polish boots.

Shop shop!

Physics was screwed, hahaha! Since when would i ever not screw up a test!

Shopping with yammy the Beauty today. My eyes were superrrrrrrrrr tired. Nevertheless, i'm still willing to fly back to ION to shop again, hahahaha!


Why iS ION Orchard named ION?

ION Orchard is connected to Wisma. Wisma is a non-metal, ION Orchard is a metal. Therefore, they are IONically bonded and thus, ION Orchard is called ION!

Okay, this is freaking lame.

When will we?

I'm not freaking scary when i scold! :(

Okay, maaaaaaaaaybe, since i'm not the one being scolded.
But i'm so angelic! Hahahaha! O :)



Physics tom!
Hope yammy the Beauty can go out with me after that. :D:D:D:D:D




Check out my cool recess.
Ignore the ugly chickkkkkken and focus on the little star and bear bear. SO CUTEZXZXZXZXZ. How can they sell such cute things! :(




I have this urge to be emo. Not exactly emo, just, feel like reflecting on my life. And no, i obviously won't talk about my life's journey and how i got stuck in the sea. Hahahaha, it's over.

For my whole 15 years (plus, i can't be bothered to count the seconds, hours and days), "impossible" have been flowing through my brain for countless of times. And now, i realised, it is these impossible things that make things possible. Why? Because it says I (a)m possible. (Okay, hahaha, lame!)

But really. People in the past say that it is impossible for us to step onto the moon. Because it is impossible, it became possible. People in the past say that it is impossible for Singapore to stay independent. It became possible too, and we're well ahead of many other countries. I used to think that getting into triple science was impossible. Well, it became possible too. And even up till now, i'm telling myself that (something) is impossible. Actually, it may be possible after all.

Whether something becomes possible or not, it's still dependent on ourselves. God made everything seem impossible, and guides us to another angle. Tada, we see it, the possible. Very often, it is the obstinate us who refuse to budge. We are just plain timid, we play along with others. When will it be the day where we all can make a stand on our own, choose to take a step forward to discover a difference? When will we come to our senses? When will we be able to differentiate what's right from wrong and do the right? When will we stop waiting for the opposite party to take the first step?


When will we?
When will we?
When will we?
When will we?
When will we?
When will we?

:)

Every week is a boring week. And i realised, what's driving me through the week is all about SJ. :)
(NOT SUJUUUUUUUUUUUU!)

Rehearsals - I'm so proud of being in SJ, even though we still have much to improve on. Apart from that, it just interferes with my forced-to-study-time. But seriously, i'm starting to get jittery and gittery about friday.

:OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I know being scared/nervous doesn't help me to be better. Well, but it's a natural feeling! Jaebeom should come and save meeeeee! Hahaha, kidding.

Geography is such a shitty thing.



PS. Dan is NOT my new (boy)friend. Danica, Dan for short. :D

Look at our beautiful Jiaxianzxzxzxz.

Cheater bug!

Here's to all the con-men in the world (even if you're not reading this): Before you go around conning people, think of a better excuse.


This super retarded man (whom i shall not reveal his ethnicity), was walking/loitering/moving/strolling around the bus interchange at AMK hub. And he just had to approach me and Dan. You think we small and innocent very easy to cheat? He claimed he had asthma and needed money to go Tan Tock Seng. And oh, he was holding on to an inhaler and some $2 notes.

1. If you have asthma, for heaven's sake, USE YOUR INHALER! And your inhaler is like, BLUE capped, which is for you to relief yourself.

2. Isn't it a common sense for you to breathe faster when you have asthma? You didn't even try to act, how would you get people to believe you? Save your pathetic eyes.

3. If you really had asthma, by the time you collect $2 from everybody (assuming everyone was so generous), you would've just fainted.


Next time if you have asthma, don't need to be so calm and go around asking for money. Just fall onto the ground, pretend to have extreme difficulty in breathing and people will call ambulance for you. Most importantly, hide your inhaler.



The chem coursework is lame ttm.


Today is a bad bad day. Even the bus driver went onto the wrong route and had to U-turn back on the oh-so-narrow road. It was far more than a 3-point-turn, jamming the whole road. Super hilarious to see those aunties and uncles' reaction, like they were so scared the whole bus would flip when it went over the curb. Soon after that, it was this long truck thing jamming another road. Once again, the aunties and uncles started being so anxious again.


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MOLE CONCEPT rocks my life.
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Poo poo!

Yup, constipated face. :( Can't help it. :(
And no way am i going to command like that in CCA. One day i should try commanding in front of a mirror and see how i look. Constipated + jaw fracture? Hahaha!

I wasted16 hours of my life sleeping, can't help it either. I was awesomely tired after yesterday's rehearsal-cum-CCA, and i don't know why. This shouldn't be happening, grahzxzxz!


Plus, the all the almighty-and-high-teachers-who-are-so-fabulously-fabulous just dumped us this heap of homework to do. And what can i, this lowly peasant folk say? Nothing but complain here, duh.

Some wise people say that we should live every day like it's the last. For my brain's sake, i would definitely skip school on the last day of my life. But does it make a point to skip school every day? No. It's beyond me to live life to the fullest in school, either.

Nevertheless, i shall attempt to learn, instead of memorise.
To hell with education.

Gone

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone


Ahhhh! Hope i won't screw up on the actual day. The commands are soooo foreign! Hahahahaha!

Well, at least SJ is the GOH this year and it's gonna be exciting!
(I don't mean Super Junior is the Guest-of-Honour this year.)

It's time for us to shine and let others know, we don't just save lives. We're just so cool that you can't be hawttt!

Bio paper today was tada! Screwed! I don't believe if i had studied properly it would've been better. Therefore, i'm rather satisfied. Very, very bad of me. >:)


And crappy crap crap! All my brackets (braces) are like coming off! 2 is out alr! :( I shouldn't have have bitten the sweet, hee!



Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Oh, i wore hairband to school today. :)

Pharynx (L)

That's where i'm at. Barely a page yet! >:(

Something's seriously wrong with all the biology teachers in the world.

And now there's this truckload (not exactly) of commands to memorise and a lot is new! D: Hahaha! I need to figure out how to say it.

Dahulu, hahaha! Cute! It sounds like a river in Hawaii. :3

Shall get the pronunciation right before i study gross bio.

Nappy!

I shall take a good tight nap before i decide whether to do it or not.

Because, once it's done, it's gone forever.

And i guess He's teaching me the most important lesson now: To learn to let go. :)

Glory of Love?

Just in case anybody thinks i'm wallowing in self-pity, thinking how my life just suck right down to the core of this Earth, no i'm not. And all you can do is accept it, live with it, because i'm not a thing for you to look down at.

I'm just being a normal person with feelings and emotion (well at least more than you do). You've just woke me up and really, thanks for that.

God planned all these obstacles for us to go through. And yes, i couldn't make it through. Just a minute ago, i was still a weakling finding hard to move on. I would just keep slowing down, looking back, waiting for someone to chase after me. And in this very minute, i've decided. I'm going to hunt for the flowers myself. Perhaps by the time i reach it, it would've wilt. I'm not afraid to go further to find more. Because i know i still have friends (whom may not be with me through my journey) cheering for my spiritually. Honestly, i can't feel it. But i know it exist, i do.

Someone told me that i've grown from a wilful girl to a responsible and mature person now. I was rather skeptical at first. I couldn't find my self-worth. Yet, you woke me up, indirectly of course. I am not going to retreat back into my shell anymore. This heavy burden on back just as well poses as a defensive weapon to me. Well, at least i'm gonna prove you wrong. If you think you've really learnt your lesson, i have 101 reasons to doubt so.

Even though i hate my face, i hate the fact i can't smile, i shall love myself.

I will let the love between us die. And then i'll light up another.

I believe in the path God is leading me to.
I may not be worthy to mention him, but that doesn't mean you are, too.



I'll see how long you all can make a joke out of me. Till the day i lie in my coffin? :)





I love you, because i love you. And i'm willing to wait.
(Hahahaha! Extracted from sex education vid!)

;O

My title is a face in attempt to open its eyes while yawning.

;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O ;O


So cute! Hahaha!




Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete


This song is practically written for me to sing it manzxzxz. Every single word. Only realised it last night hahahaha!

And there's still Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson. If you think you're the one i probably wanna sing too, play it in your juke box and find the lyrics. Every single word counts. :)


My braces are in hawtzxz red and pure stained white. Hahahaha! National day! The white is stained yellow, all thanks to meesiam. I shouldn't have eaten it! >:(




Just as you are about to grab your guitar and smash your comp for being so sucky (because msn doesn't work)...



FB comes to the rescue! Hahahahahaha!
FB saves the damsel in distress (yammy).



Brand of the day:

I swear they have the nicest bag on Mother Earth! That's why their logo is green right!









Maybe i've just proved myself wrong, but i still love the bags! There are much nicer ones which i couldn't find on the webbie, but, oh well! I love the green one loads! The forth one. :)




Cute, like jae!

My head, my life.


Hahaha, take my life!

Now and then.

It seems like not long ago, i was just a little innocent and shy (hahahaha!) girl. I could barely lift my legs 90 degrees, not to mention, i was pretty much of a flamingo.

I will give my best.
And not bother guessing how people think i am. I am who i am, so, i am me.
I can't help it if you choose to look at my weaknesses all the time.


I realised that i'm so unhappy all the time is neither because of this nor that. I just can't accept how things can change so fast. Perhaps this society/world is too fast-paced for me.




I never had a place.

Rain is back.

Why must it rain today! :(

LC was a complete waste of time. The music which was supposed to make us relax just made me sleep. Hope i get a big nice 20 for it! :P


I'm starting to get pissed with some people for being so rude.



If only i was Hitler. I would probably pass my history with flying colours.
If only i was Albert Einstein (Does he do chemistry?), I would probably get full marks for chem.

All and all.

Go on. Do whatever you like. This is what you have to do, not what we don't wanna do.


Eclipse tomorrow in Singapore. Can't wait! Even if i can't see it with my naked eye, i shall just make it a very memorable moment of my life.



4 hands.

Eating on public transport?

Since those people who commented values "social etiquette and personal responsibility" so much, i guess they're nothing better.

So much social etiquette to not censor the girls' faces and so much personal responsibility to not mind their own words.

It's so absurd that the members of the public just love to have the mindset that every pupil from an "elite" school are rich. I shall therefore assume, too, that your weeny little brains are not very productive in trying to make very good inferential skills. It's like smacking it right onto our faces that we are all spoilt brats, doing whatever we like and just leave the fines to our parents. And just judging from the way those Singaporeans commented, it distinctly shows how the shallow mindset of theirs separate them from our advancing society.

Get a life, dudes.


True, without such minor things uploaded, STOMP wouldn't exist. How about coming up with more sensible and constructive statements?

And next time, mask the people's face.

Before you start digging your nose, scratching your feet or licking your hand in public, cover your faces. :) Before someone of very high moral values comes along and snap a shot of you!




If you're super bored with homework or memorising chem formulas, read up STOMP! Especially the comments. Very, amusing.

Busy BUsy BUSy BUSY

Had been busy with my new bed. And it's finally done. It's supposed to be DIY (with manual of course). Now my fingers are almost raw, and so seemingly tender. Hahahaha! From turning the screw tight enough so that it wouldn't make the whole bed collapse and screw me up.


So now for a few days or so, i'll be stuck in this new room without the air-con cause it's malfunctioning! To think that my sister said this: Warm air rises, cool air sinks. Good theory, horribly wrong. It's so warm at the bottom!

Shall start on ting li now.
Tonnes of homework for the worst-struck-with-tests week. THANK GOODNESS THERE ISN"T TINGXIE!





I think it's gooooooood! At least i could understand it without reading the book. Afterall, i don't like reading. And it's not very serialised either.

I think the 3rd and 5th book's movies suck the most. But i realised that's because i didn't watch them properly. I only caught them on TV, and it's all part by part. :(

Anyway, slow pigs, must go watch! By the time i went to Cathay, 3 time slots were fully sold out. Caught it at 5.10, and it was sold out too! Super cool! Those single seats were even taken up by the kiasu people! But the seats we got was not bad. Yum!

HEY HO! La Nina! EL Nino! Okay, whatever.

Anyway, i'm shifting into my sis's room sometime soon. Because dad and mum's gonna bring back tonnes of things from their fugly office. Afterall, i was just trying to spare a thought for my living room, so i sacrificed my room! Lesser responsibility to pack. >:)


Went to IKEA today. I've aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lot of wantsssss! We're gonna get double-deck bed. And saaaaaaadly, i'm using the bottom. What a great sis am i. Nevertheless, the new room will be super flowery! >:) Nah, kidding. But we had our eyes on a couple of flower-shaped lights/lamp/whatever to stick on the wall. :D

I'd love to make the room like heaven. But the stupid closet and desk is attached the the freaking wall and we don't have the time to knock it down. And the point is, they're freaking uglyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! >:(



I shall paint the existing shelves and show off my artistic talent. I'd rather paint flowers than to read about the coasts. Or Hitler. Or Stanlin. Or, how iron (ll) mixes with ammonia/sodium hydroxide to form dirty green precipitate which is insoluble with excess ammonia/sodium hydroxide.





Jaebeommmmmmmmmmm! :)

"Love grows where trust is laid, and love dies where trust is betrayed."

Sorry.

Sorry for being so lousy. I know i don't deserve it, neither do i want it.

And sorry, but you just made me lose all trust, not just in you, but everyone around me. I really had pinned a lot of hopes on you, but you just let them fall right smack onto the ground. The the sad thing is, you never realised it. Maybe you really still feel the same way as me, but, i don't know. Sorry. Maybe it's better for you this way; you seem happier. I truly wish that you are.

-shrugs-

I'm probably just selfish.








REVEALED!
It's black, hahaha! >:)

Removing it soon. My nails are growing!







For fans of yammy.


Another one. >:)


Can you see me in her? :D


Look at my baby fats! :D So now, would you quit saying i'm fat-less? :) Thanks.


It's a tombolo. There's headland and bay too! I'd love to sit on that little island.


Default face.


We were supposed to act lian! :(


Err, whatever this is called.


Random. Yu-er take one.


Again. Hahahahaha!



Super ugly.


Super unglam!


About to take off.


:D I suspect yam is trying to imitate Spiderman.


Yumin's head can drop off anytime.


Yam is a failed jumper!


She's trying to do the horse-stance! And yumin is trying to be Superman.


I'm trying to act macho? Hahahaha! Unglam!


?!?!?!


SEEEE! I told you yam is trying to imitate Spiderman!
We were supposed to be rockstars though. :(


See the waves breaking? :D
TSW is on my mind all the time. I LOVEEEEEEEEE geog totally!


Yay!


Twister. Fries.







I'm like listening to a lot of oldies recently. Slow, calm, and smooth. Meaningful lyrics that always describe my feelings. Even though it's like love songs (and i'm freaking not in love), you can twit the romance. Hahahaha!



When I need youuuuu~

I really like my blog header. Except my wrinkly chin! >:(



Anyway, i got one of the greatest shock in life. When yammy was alr at the bus-stop, she actually bothered to walk back to school and join in my training! D: But still, a leopard can't change it's spots. I still had to go to father barre and fetch her. And also, to carry her purpley bag. :P

Trainings nowadays are super unproductive. Sigh and sighhhhhhhh. What more can i do! :( I know i'm lousy.



I wanna turn time back. :(

Random people like to tell me about how i should learn to let go, stop suppressing myself and be so emo(tional). How about you read this first.

2 months plus ago, i chose to jump off the boat (for some reason that you don't need to know). Up till today, i'm still struggling in the water. And do i look like i enjoy being stuck there in the open sea? If don't know that i can't swim for nuts, now you know. It's not like i've not been trying to learn how to swim (on my own). Maybe i've gotten the gist, but any normal person would feel tired after paddling in the water for so long, no? If you think i could just simply stay there (and trap water blah blah) until another boat comes along, sorry, that's not my style. Well, i seem to see an island now. But for all i know, it may just be the work of mirage. And all i could tell you now is, i'm feeling veryyyyyy exhausted, cold, and hungry. I don't even have a piece of log with me now. I really wanna get out of this stupid thing now, so, cut it out.
After all, it was a friendship i thought would last till my last day on Earth. Or even longer.


And no matter how emo(tional) i get, i will never attempt to kill myself by slashing my wrist, jumping off the building or burn charcoal etc. I'm not that dumb, aye? If i seem to be un-contactable for a couple of days, it's either i'm giving myself some peace, or i might be dead in an accident. So, whatever, suicide is stupid. Plain stupid.

And i no longer find it courageous to commit suicide now. Because it just shows that you have no courage to face this world of hell. So, be brave. Like me. :)

But sorry, i still can't use my pride to pay for something that has caused me so much disappointment.




I can't stand and sit the way vocab kills me! But even so, i'd hug my chinese paper in contentment (even though my overall marks are like ._.). Unlike some people who get so high also want to complain. Show some self-contentment, dude!


Oh, my prediction is that i will celebrate a very lonely 16th Birthday. I never fail to wait in anticipation for my 16th Birthday, and i always knew it would be the best Birthday i'd ever have. Now, i'm still very excited for it. Because after that day, it'll be just another 11 months and everything would be over. No matter what, i'm still gonna make it the best Birthday for me. Whether or not i celebrate it in my toilet with my marvelous cake. >:)



I really need to adopt healthy eating.
I really need to stop saying thats mean.




We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay





You made me lose my belief in miracles.

When my tears were on the verge of falling, it was then i knew that it started to hurt.
When i see the stations retreating and myself moving on with the train, it was then i knew i had to let go.

Every drop seemed like beads of alcohol, slowly dripping onto my wound and all i could do was to watch it hurt.

Why? Because i knew that ________________ at all.

Superficial

The greatest pain doesn't come from a fresh wound. It only comes from a wound overlying another that has yet to recover.





The wound below my calf is freaking pain!

I made another prediction. Till then, when i feel like telling you.

Strength.

Finally i can sleep early. Free from oral, free from tests (at the moment).

Leadership workshop started today. I wouldn't say it was worth/waste of my money, but it was kind of interesting though. Well at least it made me understand myself more, let me know who am i, what kind of leadership styles i have. Pretty true. :) Not 100% accurate though.

Apparently my most dominant personality type is the 'Charmer' kind of person. Glib tongue, good at words, sociable etc, get the gist?

And apparently, CHARISMATIC appeared again! >:)

Expressive - like when one spams smileys on msn etc. Which is so me! :P On the contradictory, i've always thought that i was more of not expressive. I mean, i prefer to keep most things to myself. What you read in this cyberspace is barely a quarter of my feelings. I can't possibly make known everything to everyone right! :P


But something struck me quite greatly - which is i tend to decide by feelings. Well, almost very true. For formal things, obviously i decide with my brain. But for the other little (or maybe not) things, i just, tend to let emotions lead me through. And yes, it did land me in deep shit. But since i've already chose my own path, i'm not gonna look or turn back.


"Strength," is my word for you.
"Strength to move on," is my phrase for you.
"Strength to move on is the greatest possession you can ever have," is my sentence for you.

At least when everything turns out wrong for you, the strength to move on pulls you through.
I am making my pace now.




Strength, i just love this word.

Good Morning, Teacher.

Screwed ORAL.
Screw the examiners.

& i totally embarrassed myself in the waiting room.

Instructions:
1. Make a loser sign with your left hand.
2. Erect the other 3 fingers.
3. Make a loser sign with your right hand.
4. Erect the other 3 fingers.
5. Invert your right LOSER, so that it points down.
6. Join both hands together; thumbs to indexes, indexes to thumbs.
7. Rotate it such that your left hand is on top, right hand at the bottom.
8. Peer through your rectangle.
9. (Only applied to me.) Screens through the room and looks out of the room.


Guess what's in my rectangle! The teacher invigilating the silent readers outside! And she was looking at me, laughing! >:)

When it was my turn, she just started smiling to herself cheekily. I greeted her good morning, as usual.

OMGEEEEEEEEEE!

I'm too shocked to go any further. :O

SCHOOL tomorrow.
I'm so sick (of it).

When i finally decide to colour my SCHOOL, it means i love school.
That will never happen actually.

More pictures when yumin goes back to aussie. Cause she smartly didn't bring her USB cable here. :)



Does anyone share the pain of school with me? I hate it so much that i could be bothered to blog about it all the time. :///////////////////

Only the strongest stay; the weaker ones fall. And i had to be the weakest.


I shall spoil my intention of making this yet another 1 2 sentences post.

SENTOSA tomorrow! Can't wait. Oh well, actually i can.
If anyone here going sentosa tom, tell me! So that i could hide! >:)

Fast & Furious?

Lazy to post those similar ones. And we didn't manage to take the fighter jets! Or whatever it's called. Too fast, too furious. Soon after came a bird. Didn't manage to take it too, cause my phone was too slow, too tame.

& check out some of my artistic shots yo!
Note the sky colour change too!




If you wanna read my blog, read. But i don't see the need for you to mock what i say. Afterall, it's none of your business how i like things to be. I was so wrong about you.

And you, i find it really hard to make you my friend. Maybe you are now, but that's just physical. I think right now there's only 5 friends i could trust. Even though i hardly talk to 3 of them now, i mean really hardly, but every time we smiled to each other, it's just that genuine. As for the other 2, one had always been, the other was just more true than you. I could tell her things (not meant to be known to others) and she would just listen. Best of all, she doesn't talk behind my back and expose my secrets, like you do.

I just needed someone i could trust. Is that too hard for you to take? Either be my trustworthy friend, or just leave me alone. I don't need a world of hypocrisy to drive me nuts.





I've officially become an emo kiddzxzxzxxz. Or maybe i'm just turning into a punk, or... GOTH? >:) You'll know it tom.



Can't wait to get onto the beach. Maybe i won't hear the birds chirp, hear the waves crash on the shore, smell the beachy smell, feel the breeze or hear the rustling of the coconut trees. And not speak a word. But i'll just, be free and easy, and definitely NOT getting a tan! I realised how black my face is!

Like Jacob Black!



Bella SO DO NOT deserve Blackayyeee! >:)




LOOK AT THIS! Hahahahahahahahahahaha! <3

Sometimes you should just keep your mouth shut and do what a friend should do.

I <3 Singapore.

Oh yeah.

NDP 09 (preview), everything's pretty much the same. Except some parts are super drama and the cannons just shocked my outta my skin. :O

I was being such an aunty and tan1 xiao3 pian2 yi2 person and was so eager to get my fun pack. SO FUN CAN! This year's bag is da bombzxzxzxz. Cool transformation, feel like bring it to school. It's in sunny yellow, because the stupid person don't let us choose colour. I wanted purple! There wasn't red, awwwwwwwwwwww. Anyway, i thought i could've started having things other than red, because i'd prefer to be more colourfool. >:)







Lame shitzxzxzxzxzxz.
Pics of NDP (preview) tomorrow! >:)

Beat the eggs; crack.

So beat it, but you wanna be bad
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right


MJ is freaking cute SIOL, ahahahahaha!

I shall not make it a bad habit and start using siol, hahahahaha! Hahahaha-ing is alr a very bad habit. I never stop laughing on the net. :D


I shall go settle my problem and satisfy my physical (and mental) need. Oops, don't think the left way! I'm just gonna go and sleep. Practically in an oven. It's breeze-less! :(


But thou shall carry on being a good environment-lover (eww?) and don't contribute AS MUCH to global warming.


I'm determined to exercise more, eat more fruits and veggies. And cut down on sugar! >:(


Where art thou?

>:)

FINALLY, it's the end of the week.

This is super worth celebrating. School was super sucky, well actually, i never liked school. Especially when this thing, that thing, everything is cancelled and postponed, it's super irritating. Might as well just close school!

(Okay i shall stop spamming super.)




And finally saw yumin today, after a gazillion years. She painted her nails, which i so wished i could do the same. If not for the dumb school rules, i would've painted mine hot pink!

Hahahaha! Today was retarded siol. -looks in the direction of yammozxzxz-
Nothing much to talk about though.

Sometimes i wished i had a bigger heart. And be more forgetful.


I can finally sleep till i wake up on my own record. INSTEAD OF having my dad coming in and out of the room and trying to wake me up. I'd just pretend to sit up and regain my consciousness, until he goes out and i'll lie back down again. -repeats cycle-


Yay yay! I'm NOT GOING TO WAKE UP unless the sun burns my butt.

Personal Globe Inventory - Jobs to consider.

Kindergarten Principals
Wardrobe & Dressing Room Attendants
Child Care Centre Supervisors
Personnel/Human Resource Managers (That's like Julia L., YUCKS!)
Educational Administrators
Risk Managers
Judges Legal/Compliance Officers
Community Development Officers
Employment Interviewers
Welfare Officers
Personal Financial Consultants/Financial Planners
Training Programme Managers
Relationship Managers

Yuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkssssssssssss!


Work Skills Inventory - Occupations to consider.
Registered Nurses
Occupational Therapists
Prison Officers
Employment Interviewers
Respiratory Therapists
Physiotherapists
Concierges
Full Time School Counsellors
Advertising Sales Representatives
Medical Social Workers
Early Intervention Programme for Infants and Children Teachers (EIPIC Teachers)
Doctors
Police Officers
Police Officers (CISCO)
Health Promotion Executives
Database Administration Managers
IT Security Managers
Network Operations Managers
Ship Planners
Optometrists

Boring ttm!

Work Skills Inventory - Occupations I may aspire.
Veterinarians
Paramedics
Station Managers (SMRT)
Marine Officers
Judges

Ewwwwwness!



I am so never going to get those jobs hahahahaha! Marine officer is fine! Actually working in the NAVY is cool!





Hmmm, busy, busy not, busy, busy not. School just sucked. Last few nights were spent on tingxie, which explains the absence of new posts.


Rah! Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???

Forget?

Forget about the nose.
Forget about the chin.
Forget about the sags.
Forget about the artificially bleached face.

It's obvious to us that an amazing dancer is hiding behind such an ugly face. Whatever, he never made an impact on my life. I could almost never mention him, not until he died.

Why do people only actually bother to realise one's talents and good points when they die. I can't judge his character, i'm not his fan, i don't listen to his music. But he definitely brought joy in the entertainment industry to many people around the world, no?

Thriller. Man in the Mirror.
*hic*

HAHAHA, not my type. Cut out with the hiccups, i just wanna learn your moonwalk. >:)



I still have yucky geog to do, yucky tingxie to learn, lovely bed to sleep in. Feel like skipping the first two and do the last straight away.

-yawns-



I wished jaebeom would appear in front of me and serenade. For me. :)
Isn't it sweeeeeeeeeeeet?

PS. That doesn't mean i forgot about Hongki! :P

36.3 degrees. Celcius.

Why can't my temperature ever hit above 37 deg when i first stepped into my teenage life. Or perhaps, i'm cold blooded?

Things wouldn't be any better, even if it was when we first started out.

I still can't accept the fact that school has reopened. Lessons seemed like it's gonna take forever. Plus, i really had a super bad headache since math. My brain seem to sway and sway and sway. At the moment when i lower my head, my brain was like flying forward and pressing onto my nerves and cornea, giving me tremendous stress at my forehead which, i had to use my hand to support it up. I felt like removing my brain or something. Especially when you have to constantly look up onto the forever-small-and-blur screen, back to your paper, up again, back to your paper, i really drives you nuts in circles. Closing my eyes just made be feel like being on the computer chair, with someone simultaneously swishing you in circles, making it such a mad world.

I hate school.

Especially when everything is cancelled. Might as well not have school! Hope they postpone Natcomp too! Haven't been keeping up on training during the hols, which makes me feel super uneasy. After all, i don't wanna go there and embarrass myself.


Somethings are starting to become more obvious to me.



I need more rest. But haven't i got enough?

:)

Everyone's back!

Yumin's back from Aussie, yay!
Sueyi's back from Malaysia, yay!
(Contrasting colours, learnt from art. :P)

Sad for sue cause she still has school to go, like me! :(

Slept from 6+pm yesterday till today morning, 11am? Like cool, i had this super long dream. Every time i wake up from it, i sleep and get back into it. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">everyone passed MOI, words of command and personal drills. All is left is theory, and i'm quite sure i passed it. Only 20 blanks to fill, and i'm quite sure for most of my answers. Plus after the theory exam, he told us a lot of the answers and it was right! And because 3 out of 7 people failed it, we had a retest. My answers were pretty much the same though. Really hope everyone passes it! :) And those who are taking it another day (LIKE MABELLINE), good luck! MOI was kind of fun!

But still, nothing is confirmed yet. :/ Since he hasn't notified us, hahahaha. Indeed i've walked away from this course with many many many new things. Even if i fail it, i'm still going back to SNSJ with the new things i've learnt, so, yup. Passing it just confirms what i had learnt.


Can i talk about MOI, pretty please? Hahahaha! Obviously i can, but you can skip this.
It was really fun and funny hahahahaha! The rest of the course had to act as sec ones, which we kind of did. We would keep glancing at the examiners cause apparently they just tend to stand very far away and keep chatting. I manage to catch them glancing at us often though! We had 2 rounds to do, first round with the sirs from our zone, second from the Training Head Officer from zone 3.

My comments for first round is: I am too TLC.

Hahahahahaha! Helloooooooo, that's what i am.
-winks-

Hahaha, kidding! Probably cause i was too shy to be fierce hahaha! Whoever thinks i'm fierce is bliiiinnnndddddddd.

Every time each one of us go up there to teach, some people will hold back their laughs, which is very funny. PLUS, when you accidentally (or maybe purposely) say something funny, we'll burst out laughing, including the IC. Hmmmm, maybe it caused some marks (behaviour), but that was what made MOI fun! :P

Hello everyone. My name is Claudia and all of you can address me as IC. Is that clear?

Yes IC!

So basically for today, i'll be teaching all of you how to open up and close up a squad. But for now, i'll first teach you how to open up a squad. The command in the National Language of Malay is 'DALAM BUKA BARISAN, BUKA', which means in open order in English.

Now, i will demonstrate to all of you how to execute the command.

Yada yada yada, i'll never teach the sec ones this way! Hahahaha, okay, maybe i will. But i won't introduce myself hahahaha!

Whenever anyone introduces themselves, we'll start laughing, cause it's weird and funny.

Okay, i shall now take my leave.

That's what everyone says when they're done. Hahahahahahaha! So retarded!


Now that it's over, i don't know if it's something happy or sad.

Now and then, people ask me a lot of questions i'd love to answer if it was in the past. I'd definitely be proud of it. Now, i'd just be very hesitant and give a, fake answer? Otherwise it'll be the answer had always given, but it bears no meaning anymore.

Quick?

Shall make this quick. Because my eyes are super tired and my eyelids are super heavy, thereby causing my sight to become blurer and smaller.

Okay whatever.

Spent my pay (in advance cause i haven't got my paycheck yet) on the TOPSHOP bag. Yay! Can't wait to use ittttttttt!


FD theory exam, MOI and words of commands tomorrow. And mabelline isn't going, which means i'm going alone. Quarantine sucks my socks when i'm not quarantined. RAH! I'm like super scared now, being alone. Not because i'm afraid that i'll not pass it, not because i'm afraid of taking bus alone (with the risk of missing a stop), not because it's an exam.

I'm just, scared. I'm like almost friendless there, oh well. I'm frigging scared for MOI. Ahhhh! I'll just embarrass myself!

Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.
Stop thinking about it.

No, it's nothing emo.
I just wanna stop thinking about the stupid itch.
TO HELL WITH ALL THE MOZZIES IN THE WORLD!

I shall never work anywhere in Keppel Tower anymore! >:(
I've got 3 frigging bites. And i suspect i have some disease cause all my bites can become frigging big.

Eg. The one i had on my calf had a size of, practically my whole calf?! Plus now there's a new fresh bite there, at the lower part. >:( And they're all infected cause it's super warm.

Oh well!

To yammy (in case i forget): My sunnies are only $1.50! :)

Work's ending tomorrow! :((((((((((
Even though i don't really like going to work, but that means that hols are ending!

AND FREAKING HELL! I DIDN'T EVEN LIKE GO OUT?!?! :( Like enjoy myself or something.
I'm really not ready for school. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((



Trying to (very hard) stretch my neck to take a picture. :)


Failed shot too. :( Nevermind, the pepper seem to look better than me anyway. >:)


Super unglam, hahahahahahaah! Supposed to be a rejoice to knock off!


Like this shot, the buildings look so cool! :)


While walking.

Braces are destroying my smile, so expect more tongues and kisses! :)
(Sounds wrong hahaha!)


We tried to take as much photos as possible for that darned scrapbook, which apparently isn't very successful. NEED TO TAKE LIKE CRAZY TOM! >:)

I'd rather go to boring work every day than school! :(
8.30am - 5.30pm, I DON'T MIND!

Friends?

Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad and mom

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend : they ask you for their number ( cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing Best friend: will always go with you

What are you to me?






Can you see my cool shades? :)

PICTURESSSSS!

















Look at my smile! >:( Stupid braces like to make that gap there.


Sorry, i can't find a better face to do, hahahaha!


Me and my cute socks. :)


Fishball. Cute. Thanks. >:)






AS FOR MY JOB... :) Finally.




Exhausted my list of faces to do! D:


Super aunty right, my dressing. :(


I didn't find the toilet OK.





Sorting camera pouches tomorrow. :) Finally something more "active" to do.

Somebody date me to watch DRAG ME TO HELL!

Efficiency?

Ooooopps! No pictures again! D: Especially when now my working corner is in this super hugeeeeeeeeeeee room with super lots of people. I couldn't even secretly take pictures! Besides, today was busy, busy, and more busy.


Did the collation of survey results. 4 stacks. 4 different days of forms to key in.

EXCEL is what i used.
Counted the least thick stack - 86 pieces of forms! D:
That means that i keyed in almost 400, and thank goodness, I FINISHED IT TODAY.

Me: I'm done with this.
Man: Oh okay. -pauses- You finished it?!?
Me: Yup.
Man: Woah, so fast!
Woman: She whole day tap tap tap on the computer...

BTW, it's not easy work! Especially when those super honest people are so honest, so honest and thoughtful that they ticked everything different. Those strong agree, disagree kind. It's difficult to explain here.

Now i pity those survey collators, hahahaha! :(



Anywayzxzxzxxz, we need to have a user and pass when we log onto the computerrrr. My user is boring, but not my pass! Guess what's my password!

If you think i won't reveal it, I SO WILL.

MaeMae22. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I wanted ClaudiaS31 or Claudia94 or something, but cannot contain name! MaeSeah22 also cannot because there's Seah.

Here's the criteria for the password:

Password Complexity Requirements
Password must be at least 8 characters and must not be used before.
Password must contain characters from three of the following four categories:
1. English uppercase characters
2. English lowercase characters
3. Base 10 digits (0 through 9)
4. Non-alphabetic characters (for example, !, $, #, %)





So cute right, Canon! I really think my password is super cute! MaeMae22, hahahaha!

BTW, Mae is my sister's name and 22 is her birth date. :)



Wonder what's in for me tomorrow. :/ The beginning is always bad. Sitting at my desk and staring into blank space. Or trying to find something to do on my phone. So weird, because that's amidst of everyone being so busy!


Topic of the colleagues for the day:
1. Eat a lot of durian?
2. Mahjong.
3. Complaining about customers. (Those who need to answer calls.)
4. About how sick they she is. Just keep on complaining non-stop. TAKE MC?!?!
5. What to eat for lunch.


Oh, there's this group of weird men who go around every morning to say "GOOD MORNING" repeatedly. Idk who are they, but we all have to stand when they come in. I can see all the fake smiles from the fellows staffs. HAHAHAHAHA! And that group of people will start waving their hands like they're the president(s), or not shake hands.



Rah.

100

100th post.

-drums and trumpets-


I really want that TOPSHOP bag! :(((((((

Dear Diary,

I had my first job today. I really loved it. I had a super nice boss and super good work to do. I really love my colleagues too! They helped me a lot, giving me cool work to do, I REALLY LOVE IT!


Truckiie loads of lurrrve,
Claudia

1. My boss The HR (Human Resource) Manager sucks.
She thinks that i should smile more, because the staffs in Canon are all very cheerful and smiley. :D Not smiling would make me a negative person. Awwwwwwwwwwwwww..... :(

-bares teeth-

That excludes the STRICTLY 1 HOUR lunch. Strictly, you know, strictly.


2. My workscope for the day - Sorting ink cartridges, counting ink cartridges, folding plastic bags and scanning.


SORT.


SORT AND SORT.


MORE TO SORT.




I folded plastics bags merely because i was bored. Alone in the stupid conference room, holding my bladder in fear of facing the staffs outside.

After lunch was just scanning. Scanning 300 plus minus SETS of invoices. And i keep sending wrongly. :/ Sounds little, not when you had to keep lifting up the copier's cover and pressing on the stupid screen and flipping papers. :O


3. I hardly talked to anyone. Unless they asked me questions. HAHAHAHA. Like...

- Why are you here?
- Attached for how long?
- Poly or JC ah?
- What school?
- Your name?
- Are you bored?
- You are working under _______ ah?
- Can let me photocopy something for awhile? Just 1 set.

But this guy very nice! He gave me MAMEE and Twisties! :D



Tom i'll be attached to the showroom! D:

And and and, i forgot to take pictures of myself! :( Awwwww! Anyway i was dressed super grossly today, and i'm still very troubled about what to wear tom. :(

SINGAPORE: Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on.

But recently-returned students who have travelled to affected countries will stay at home for one week before joining their classmates when schools re-open on Monday.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/437803/1/.html

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?!!?!?!? MEANS I HAVE TO LEARN TINGXIE! :( I'm sick of all your crap since they day i had to research for SS. This is the worst crap ever.





Today's GOLDMINE:






Get me any of these and i'll <3 you to bits. And pieces? :)

I've my eyes on a very nice wallet from River Island. :) $57, thanks!

It felt so strange all of a sudden.

In the past i'd just click on it and start blabbering nonsense. Now, i'd just glance past it and minimize the window.

How, weird.

f21

Cheer has left me in distress. Hahahaha, kidding! But the moves are in my head all the time. And occasionally i will twitch, including in my sleep! Which duh, woke me up. :(

Anyway, went to wisma just now! All great buys from f21, yay! :) Hula&Co was kinda :/ and MANGO disappointed me. To think i went through all cost to get there! >:(



$38. Super aunty! Hmmm, i shall see how it looks like on me, soon. :)



$38. NICE RIGHT?! :D Doubt i'll wear it out on normal days though, HAHAHA! This material is super comfy! :)


Spend > $75 and you'll get a $25-off voucher for the f21 specials range of clothes. It's blue tagged. I spent $76, got the voucher, and went to shop again. Super special till i decided to get 2 basics instead. Hmm, $13 and $15, so i basically paid 3 bucks for 2 tops! :)



Alright, gotta do up some photos. :/

Nobody shall see me in my formal wear at vivo! :P



Oh, i realised i have a very ugly t-shirt tan mark. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))):




And omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. I really wanted this! $63, TOPSHOP. & i still want it now! :(

I don't care?

I bought office wear! A skirt and a pair of pants, super ugly. Can't imagine it's gonna be on ME, gross plus gross.


Anyway, i hate it when people like to comment about how i should eat more and be a tad bit fatter. At the same time saying that i should be like my sis. LIKE WTH?!? I eat a lot and i just can't get fat, ACCEPT IT, DUDE. Plus you haven't seen my thighs, idiots. The fats just went the wrong way, AND YOU SHALL DEAL WITH IT.


Another habit: I LOVE REPLAYING THE SAME SONG. I can replay it for months and years, i like it, deal with it, too.


My sis is like some joker. She can download a song at all cost, it just had to be in her iPod by TODAY. Or, by NOW? That includes wasting my precious time because she hogged my comp. Poof!


It's amazing how so many people can be awake, even NOW. At 12.04 AM. Like wow!


I'm going to get more clothes tom! :P

The bites i got from camp left me a hell lot of scars. It's so uglyyyyyyyy! ))))))))))):




LASTLY, to yanyi, hahaha! I don't wanna join cheer cause i have no time commitment? :/ And plus, i think they're wasting their time teaching me cause i suck! And i'm sooo slow.

Maybe

Maybe . . . the brightest future will
always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can't go on
successfully in life until you let go
of your past mistakes, failures and
heartaches.

Maybe . . you should hope for enough
happiness to make you sweet, enough
trials to make you strong, enough
sorrow to keep you human, and enough
hope to make you happy.

Maybe .. . . the best kind of friend is
the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

Maybe … giving someone all your love
is never an assurance that they will
love you back. Don't expect love in
return; just wait for it to grow in
their heart; but, if it doesn't, be
content that it grew in yours.

I can't receive such high level of enlightenment. Deal with it.



I've decided to not go for cheer!
But at least i tried to! I can't say a whole night of continuous practice of a 20-plus-seconds-set was a waste. I can't say too, that i had went dizzy in vain. I can't say three, that i abraded (?) my feet for fun.

After all, the experience was, tiring. And at least i've learnt something. Even though it's not very applicable to my life, hahahaha!

If you insist that i'm very prone to give up, maybe? I'm contented that i've braced myself up to try, but it's just not me.



ANYWAYzxzxzxzxzx, cool! Even my sister thinks i've charisma! Hahahaha! She meant it in a way that i like to act cool, but whatever! Hahaha! I don't think i'm charismatic, neither do i think i'm (act) cool.


MY FAVOURITE SWEEEEEET: YUPI GUMMY BURGER BEARS!

That was random, but now, no other sweets appeal to me. :(


Anyway, i just read somebody's blog and it kinda, triggered my attention. Hmmmmmmmm, it's only then i realised how bad we were. Anyway, i hope nobody follows the footsteps. Even though i don't see that it's likely to happen, i never expected it to befall me in the past too. To think that i even thought so far to prom, weddings and bride's maids.

LQTM.


1 month is not long enough. :( I wouldn't say it's busier than school days, because i really dread school! I really really really hope hols would extend 1 week!



I've been talking to somebody almost everyday. Since the start of this year till now, the change is pretty obvious. From anticipation to enthusiasm, all is left now is reluctance. Or has it always been like that?

Maybe .. . . the best kind of friend is
the kind you can sit on a porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

I want a friend like that. I've always thought that being mute is the best gift ever. You never say anything bad. Goods things shall just be left to spiritual conversation.




There's something i really want to do now. To sit on a quiet and breezy beach, alone. I want to hear the birds chirp, hear the waves crash on the shore, smell the beachy smell, feel the breeze, hear the rustling of the coconut trees. I wouldn't mind if it's just a dream, i just want it.



Let's stop being to emotional now.


My mum bought my sis an iPod, which i don't really care. I mean, i could've requested for one, but i'd rather spend the money on nice clothes. I'm not for electronic stuff, my phone is enough. :) I shall not get tempted by the nice shade of yellow. :P

I need office wear! Job attachment next week. Not very looking forward to it though. KEEP OUT OF VIVO and harbourfront area, cause i'll be in office wear! Too bad if you can't imagine! And i am not promising photos!

ARGGGGGGGGGG!

For those who wants emo stuff, here's for you.

Every time i'm pissed or like, sad, i'll have plenty of things to blog about. Everything phrased so nicely and smoothly. During car rides, i'll just start planning what to write, blah blah blah. In the end, it's just, crap.

So, to summarise, i was super pissed today. Pissed initially, super hurt later. I, really, don't, know, what, to, do, already. I mean, if it's so hard for you, then don't! I just didn't know what i could do. Nothing i do pleases you. Nothing i do appeases you. Nothing i do is good in your eyes. You leave me in doubt of my capabilities.

Just in case no one ever knew, i had always noticed every small little things you do. It just tells me everything. Especially when it's somebody you trust a lot, it's just sooooo, sad.

Not exactly summarised, but whatever. I deleted a lot of sentences alr!



This is a such a Mad World.


Back to my life. CHEER, i totally embarrassed myself! I think they taught me like teaching a toddler coordinate geometry. There's still a prac tom, and i'm not in yet. I hope they kick me out! Or let's just leave it to fate. I'm not very flexible. The only thing i'm super proud of is being able to do a perfect butterfly! (Links to PT stretching exercise.)



And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
>I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, mad world


I'm just in love with Mad World.
The lyrics just rock my head and i can so totally imagine the whole image.
Especially when i'm on the bus/MRT in the early morning with all the working people around me. Worn out faces, bright and early for the daily races. Going nowhere further, just work.



I really wished i was strong enough to weather the hurricanes.

Coke

Not exactly anything about COKE, cause i'm lazy to talk about my inside joke.

ANYWAY, finally back from fd course. Today was super super funny and cute.

Misspellings (NOT ME! :D) such as applicacable and weird weird words (alliteration!) just drove me nuts and i could've been a mer-claudia. Geddit, merlion, mer-claudia, spitting water, no? Hahaha, his pronounciation sucks! But at least i felt entertained.

We all passed personal drills. There's still theory, words of commands and MOI! D:
I MUST NOT FAIL IT AND WASTE MY 3 DAYS OF COURSE.



Why do you want me to blog about my boring life, hahahaha? Actually apart from that, i have nothing much to blog about. Hmmmmmm, still lazy to camwhore. Maybe, tomorrow? :P

POP drills tomorrow, kill me!




Cute ttm!


Hahaha, i have a thing for flamingos lately!


How about parrots!


Acid washed tank. I don't think i'm ever sick of blue. And tanks! <3

For you! Under the hot hot sun, since too much of UV rays causes skin cancer. Despite the fact about it being good for vitamin D and blahhhhh...


Flowers are the lurveeeeee!



Hahahahaha, so cuteeeeeeeeee!



I can camwhore with all these in my collection. Yummy! :P

...

Exhausted.
And there's still tonnes of photos waiting to be done.


Long day tomorrow!
With probably all sorts of embarrassments.



Oh, be excited people. I've new cutie sunnies for camwhoring! Soon! Since you want pictures, hahahahaha! SUPER CUTE KAY!

I'm officially sick of the cyberspace.

Nothing to watch on youtube.
Sick of quizzes on fb.
No nice online games. Don't tell me runescape, please! -.-
Nice blogs are read.
Nothing nice and new on blogshops.
Sick of screen-shopping on F21.



What else to do, peeps!

I don't expect you to like me better than the rest. I know i'm not very likable, like hahahahaha. But sometimes, you really say and do stuff that hurt me. And it really just hurts.

Pain and everything bad.

Muscle acheeeeeeeeeeeee. Esp my calf hahahaha! I'm like walking like some penguin all around the houseeeee!


I'm not in the mood to entertain you all hahahaha. I'm very pig now.

Slept from yest 3+pm till 10+pm, woke up to eat junk food and durian, went back to sleep at 11+pm, woke up today at 12+pm. :P

BUT I'M STILL FRIGGING SLEEEPY!

But congratz me! It means i'm still normal! Wheeee!


Dreading fd course tom. Wonder how it'll be like. Perhaps the ordeal isn't over yet! :/ Hmph!

Aaaaaaaaaaand cheer?




RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!
Since everybody post about camp, i shall not act unique.

NINJA TURTLES ROCK MY HEAD!
See, they rock the highest level of my body, not the stinky camp socks. Hahahahaha!


My group totally owned the Tangle Taboo's hulahoop! Hahahaha! You should look at us squeeze through it kay! It was, crazy! And i had to guess the word which apparently was EBAY, which was indescribable. They were like, trade on the internet, very famous!, worldwide!!!.

And i guessed: alibaba, amazon, ace, face, gace, lace, bace. Idk what's with the aces.

And when i guessed the first letter E, they were like, the ships! Ships! Where the ships come to for trade!

And i guessed: pier, habour.

So cute right! >:)
I was stuck there for super long. :P


Some games were superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr tiring, and superrrrrrrrrrrrr funny! We just ended up playing eagle-catch-the-chicks (LOL) and wrestling. I was traumatised.

And there was the Rabbit and Rapid game, and i was blindfolded. I ended up dripping wet, which wasn't enough (apparently), and i got even wetter when someone had to dunk the whole pail of water over me. OBVIOUSLY SHE CAN'T GET AWAY, i dunked her back. :)

I found out a new fun fact about me: I CAN'T DUNK PEOPLE! Or maybe the water in the pail dislike me cause they just can't get out of the stupid pail.


PS. I'm still feeding myself with junk.


Our group cheer owned too! :)

1 2 3 4 TEENAGE MUTANT HUMAN NINJA TURTLES~!
You call us monkeys, NO, that's not what we are.
You call us pigs, NO, that's not what we are.
You call us elephants, NO, that's not what we are.

Cause we are Ninja, Niiinjaaa, Ninja?, NINJAAAA!.
T to the U to the R, T to the L E S.

1 2 3 4 TEENAGE HUMAN NINJA TURTLES~!
SHELL IT!


Okay, i sound so childish. I'm so turned off now.




I conclude that footdrill should only consist the movements of the foot. Otherwise, why would it be called footdrill!

Bodydrill, hahahaha!

Laughs quitely to myself.

LQTM. For short.





The only cute thing in camp worth remembering and reminiscing over is NOT YOU (whoever reading this), but the identity i had.

I AM PROFESSOR POMEGRANATE, P.P. FOR SHORT.


Ayeeeeee, i really have nothing to post about. I shall take down the lame polls cause i alr know the answer before i posted it, so it's kind of stupid.

How about another lame poll? Better entertainment than my boring posts, no?

Hiatus?

From now till quite long later, i shall abstain from blogging.


Nonetheless, i'm gonna change the poll into something more interesting, so you all must take the poll! Hahaha, once is enough.


I know my blog is super boring, especially the little emo stuff which you all know what i'm talking about. My life is so unprivate and people know me inside out. If you know the true me, tell me. :) I will try to change back to whom i was, with no intention of mending any broken relationships. No matter how strong the love is was, it's over.


I like the wind now. One day i will wanna try soaking myself in the rain, let it cleanse my body. Because my vampire friend told me we're going to hell, HAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway, God has answered a lot of my prayers. Sometimes, what he blessed me with wasn't what i wanted, but it's another way to let me get what i want. So, look at things at different angles, maybe you can see it better. :D

A picture to end all things before i come back,

Slorggies!

I am blessed. So are you.

Hahahahaha!

I've been having super super lame and no link dreams. Skip if you wanna spare your eyes. The person who chose SUCK MY TOES!, HURRY EXIT! Actually i don't know why you even wanna come back here, again. Hahahaha!


Last night, i dreamt of my pri school friends, and we were playing Truth (or dare without the dare) in the parade square! And the bottle never spun till it faced me, so i was just listening to other people's pri school crush. SUPER FUNNY.

Last last night, i dreamt of yammy smsing something super funny to me. Which is kind of very inconvenient for me to say it here. But it was something related to my Ironic post.

Last last last night, i dreamt that the world was invaded by vampires! (Probably due to the zombie quiz on FB.) And i thought my whole family became vampires so i ran out of home. ): I took the lift and it went down, down down down downnnnnnnnnnnn, and suddenly there was level 1, 0, -1, -2, -3... And i was freaking out!

Btw, in my nightmares i always know i'm just dreaming, but it's still scary. Anyway, every time it comes to somewhere where i'm confined, i will shut my eyes and exert extraordinary force like Superman and miraculously, i will wake up!

But this time i couldn't. It came to level -100 something and a vampire came in. Yada yada, we became friends and i asked her where we were going and she said hell. So, i begged her to bring me back up so that i could go back to my family and i promised to let her bite me so i could become a vampire, too. (Since my whole family alr vampire.) So she bit my finger, and i became a vamppie! TO MY HORROR, i reached home and found out that all of them weren't vampires.



Okay, this is super dumb and, hahaha.

Few more days till i slog it out at camp. And i shall pack my bag today! Every time i pack my camp bag, my stomach will go all jittery and bittery. And this will never change.

-sings Nobody-




Slorg! With relation to slog, hahaha!




I had always loved this when i was still playing neopets.



*triumphant music*

So cuteeeeeeeeeeee!




AND THIS IS YOU.

Jacob Jacob Jacob Black!

(You're supposed to read my post's title out loud, with a certain rhythm!)


Did'y all see the New Moon trailer! Skip the part about Bella dripping blood and getting flung away. JUST WATCH JACOB COMING TO BELLA'S RESCUE! Hahahaha! His hair is short (unlike in Twilight) and he became more muscularrrrr!

Okay hahaha, i didn't watch twilight actually. But according to wikipedia.com, he trained like mad to keep his role in N. M. because Jacob was supposed to become more big built. :P

Saddddddddly, his hair in the other series will become long again cause apparently Bella prefers it long. RAH. ): Even though it's a wig, but still! ):

I swear i'm not gonna miss N. M. like i missed twilight, and it's frigging wayyyyyyyyyyyyy in november (US). Which means it'll be later for Singapore! ):




Taylor Lautner is definitely better than R. Patt.

He just had to fall in love with Bella. He just had to get rejected. He just had to make their daughter his soul mate. He just had to be her brother because she's too young to be his lover. Awwwwwwwww.






I know you love him too. :)

GOODBYE PICTURES, you're out of my damned memory.

Ironic

Even at my last breath (i mean i'm really sleepy now), i still have to say this out.

Let this be over. We're over. All over and done with. I will assume you've never said those stupid stuff to me, and neither did i.

If you think it's easy to be in this position, come come, try it. I am so freaking scared of this world now. Every move i make is closely watched, even a slightest mistake would send me to hell. Hell, emotional hell. Asking for opinions is not being decisive enough, choosing an option you don't want is being too authoritative. SO WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME? MY LIFE?

I don't know what am i clinging on to life for. Say i'm stupid, that's what i am, no? I have no support at all. Or maybe i could hardly notice it.

I CAN TRUST NOBODY.



Horrible. That's really the only word i can describe how i'm feeling now. I'm just going to shred every single memory and throw it down the chute, really.

Just go on and humiliate me, my life cannot get any worse than this.

Fine fine fine.










Bitch about me, then cry for me.
For all i care, you're not my concern anymore.

Sometimes, being nice to assholes isn't very nice.

Why is only disappointment existing in my life? I don't have very high expections, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Opening a cupboard door…

Opening a cupboard door…
October 16th, 2005

There was a cupboard in the corner of the room. I reached out my hand and gripped the door handle. I pulled the door towards me, thereby opening the cupboard.

Hahaha, it's so retarded!
www.dullestblog.com/

Putting a piece of junk mail into the waste paper basket…
February 2nd, 2004

I discovered a piece of junk mail on my door mat. I carried the item away from the front door and held it above the waste paper basket. I opened my hand, thereby allowing the piece of junk mail to fall into the basket.

:O

Hola, peepo.


Super bad news for you, super good news for me.

I'M FRIGGING DONE WITH HOLS HOMEWORK!
That's in advance. :)

I'm left with math which i can't be bothered cause i can't do it. Maybe when i decided that hols is too bored for me, i'll try.

That means i'm left with physics! And it's a last minute revision homework which the physics teachers had decided to send us. Haven't ksw given us enough moments and revision stuff to ATTEMPT? The physics department can jolly well work with the geog and chinese department hand in hand to form The Monster Union. And they'll start some distributivization-collectivization programme, which is to distribute homework and collect. Those who don't surrender their completed homework will be killed by machine guns!

POW POW.
Poor innocent peasants folks.

Btw if you don't know what's talking me, do your history homework! D:


I stayed till 2++AM this morning doing the gross zuowen, because i couldn't wait to finish it! Anyway i couldn't sleep. For the whole of this stupid hols i've been twisting turning flipping rolling on my bed, not able to intrude into my dreamland till the oh-so-earthly hour of 3AM.

If you thought that that's because i napped through the whole afternoon, YOU KNOW ME SOOOOOO WELL! But no! I was a super good girl okay. I've been doing homework for the whole afternoon without teeveeeee!

Bow to me. Bow-wow. Hahaha, whatever.

"TO HELL WITH IT."

That's what my oh-so-cute mom said, with regards to me forcing myself to complete my homework. Hahahaha. I refused to go out shopping with her. All the teachers should be proud of me and treasure my reluctantly-done homework.

I think i did chinese with most heart. :)



I shall do physics REVISION homework. Now.

YAY!

[edit]
I lost some contacts and new numbers on my phoneeeee, so if i ask you who are you, don't be sad kay! Hahahaha!
[/edit]

I'M ALMOST FRIGGING DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK.

I'm left with the gross chinese edulearn which i had devised a cool way to do it faster.
-winks at danica-

AND MATH.
I'm so stumped by all the questions that my eyes just grow bigger and bigger and bigger AND BIGGER and then it shuts.



I totally dedicated my cute little eyes to gross homework and
START EYES.
(links back to macbeth)
So, does it start your eyes? :) I think i starts mine. :/ I mean, the word START EYES.


Okay whatever. Guess what's the coolest chinese ci2 yu3 now.

-drum rolls-



It's a picture and you can save it if you want, and learn how to write it then brag to me. Cause you have just learnt how to write the coolest ci2 yu3 on mother earth!

Btw, you can check up it's meaning, HAHAHA, lazy bum. (Kim Bum, hahaha, random.) It's kui1 bo2.

Fine. It means cheekohpeh. If you don't know what cheekohpeh means, it means those uncle sitting at the coffee shop (or any where else eg. outside the ladies) with one leg up on the chair, having the last finger with superrrrrrrrrrrrrrr longgggggggggggg nailllllllllllllllllllllllsssss, picking their ear/nose/eye and doing the tsk tsk sound and stares are girls with the sly and gross look.


LECHER. Old lecher. To put it simply. Hahahahaha.


Okay. My blog is so lame and retarded and i wonder why people will read. But i shan't be like a junior who keeps pitying people who reads her blog, which is me, and probably you! Hahahaha!



From this point onwards until the small words end, it's super boring and emo, so don't read it, unless you like sad stuff.

I have many things in life which i regretted, and the worst regret is to not trusting myself, and to not trust others. Maybe i should've given more chances, or maybe i had given too many chances. Maybe if i had held on tight and go on like it never affected me, i would've been happier. Or maybe i'll regret even more. Hmm, i feel as though i'm still waiting for something. Or maybe i'm not. It's just like when hopes are high, disappointment just crashes you down. And that's what's happening to me everytime. If i wasn't soooo sensitive and become so weird and, gross, i think what you said would still be true. Even though it's clearly not shown in your actions, i could've just lied to myself that it still existed, right? Lies. That's the only thing i can do to myself, no? I've always prepared an answer. If someone tells me off, saying that i thought i was the only one who got hurt. My answer? Think about how many i had hurt. And also think about how many people had hurt me. I need to analyse if this makes me feel better. Hmmmmm...




Done. Oh, PLEASE DO NOT tell me to cheer up. It was just random and i'm not feeling emo. Really. -.-

ZZZ

Homework seriously turns me off.
But i shall love it for the time being. :)


Anyway, as i was reflecting about how bad i was, i felt so bad to (somebody). Even though i hate disliked her, i shouldn't have had that thought! I'm such a bad bad (inserts a title).

BTW, she's not of my age, so if you think it's you, piss off. Hahahaha!


I would be sleeping right now if i didn't had training. And i'm super thankful cause i can go do my rubbish homework now.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeee!

LOL

Okay, i shall just stick to hahahahaha. But sometimes i couldn't resist using LOL cause now it looks kinda cute.

Anyway, check out my hits. What's so interesting to read here! Shooo!


AND ZOMG!
I finished my geoggy wb and bio! Hahahaha!
Although i left some questions blank.

Teachers who insist we ATTEMPT stuff that she hasn't teach are da bombzxzxzxzxz.

People who haven't done geog wb, GOOD LUCK. It's super long, so long that it kills your eyes and hands. I practically forced myself through cause i can't wait to finish it!

I am so proud of myself for not procrastinating. I MUST FINISH MY HOMEWORK BY THIS WEEK. I have no other days to do it. And it's a blessing in disguise - I can't copy homework!


I'm using MF now and it sucks.



SCREW THE CHINESE DEPARTMENT!

The stupid edulearn homework is frigging gross! 9 pages sound good, NOT THE CONTENT.



That aside, my msn alert is now flying kiss. So every time you all instant message me, it's a flying kiss! Wheeee! I know you all love me. :)



Something i need to force myself to do now is to look forward to camp. I'm supposed to enjoy my last camp as a cadet, but somehow, i'm scared. :/





Cute right! My fingers are grossly long, hate it.

Alive

It's 1.10 AM now and i'm still well alive and kicking, probably because i napped too long in the afternoon evening.

I'm like an owl now, you find me sleeping in the morning till afternoon. I need to change this stupid habit. >:)

I totally camwhored with the cool specs with my sis.

And oh, the yellow is is supposedly birthday prez for mabes, and since she didn't mind me using it for camwhoring purposed, TADAAAAA. Anyway i just had to disclose it to her, cause it's so irresistable! Thank god she loved it. <3 Just like i do.



PS. I know the shirt i'm wearing very cute, but that doesn't mean i can't solve it! :)
PSS. Just in case you were wondering if i broke the specs, the lens is removable. :P

Freak

Today was a freaky day being to freaky science center with freaky class (esp freaky danica and normal clara, and table mate normal chyifang too). We did freaky experiment in a freaky lab with freaky DNA stuff and freaky restriction enzyme and there was the freaky gel electrophoresis three!



Okay, that was because danica was being so freaky today.
FREAK.



Lab experiments are boring, camwhoring is not! Hahahahaha! Anyway my blog has been super boring without pictures lately. :P


Freak woman.
I'm sucha good photographer!


Freak woman says i look aunty whenever my mouth is like this.



Sorry, i just love the :3 mouth. Hahahaha! Because i have a problem with smiling, can?
I think looking at me is enough, more tom! :P

And check out my new cool specs! HAAAAAAAAAAAAA! It's in funky orangeeee, BE JEALOUS YAM. The star the the joints are gweeeen! :P
Bought a yerrow one for somebody.

-sings "Nobody"-




Speaking of pictures, a picture caused the problem. Maybe it's just because it looked nice, but it definitely made me think that i wasn't in the world, at all. But i don't really care anymore. I'm just thinking what comes to my mind, but it doesn't affect me emotionally. Anymore. I wished i was more mature, but sometimes things just force you to look at it from a childish view. This paragraph is supposed to be super super long and boring so you wouldn't read it, but it had read till here, then, good for you if you could catch me. Otherwise, it doesn't concern you. Blah blah blah, longer longer. Hahahahaha! I know who'll read this! Everyone! This "wordy" tactic doesn't work. ):


Whatever, i shall start on homework tom. If i'm your inspiration, do me proud. :)

Slowwwwwwwwww

Everything about this phone is good except...

It takes a damn long time to upload songs, let alone vids. And every song title has a 50-characters limit, which means artists with super long names are sad. ):

AND THE WORST THING EVER IS, I ONLY HAVE 2 FUGLY THEMES, and i can't download any from the net. ): It's either this gross moss green or another gross brick-red which is so benedict's test. UGLY.

So i used the moss green. Hahahaha, alright, fine. It's not really moss green, but some shades are super ugly.




I feel like yanking all my teeth out. >:(


Someone date me out! :)

Samsung!

Wheee! New phone!

It's GT-S5603, and definitely NOT Sony E! Let's hope this doesn't auto shut-off like the latter does. And this'll be a totally brand new experience of molesting your screen 24/7! :D

Anyway, just saw the white version. And it's sucha pity that it wasn't available at the store. :/ Oh well. I'm installing the USB Cable now and it's taking superrrrrrrr long.





Fine. Now i need to restart my comp, brb!




Hahahaha, back!
My teeth's hurting now. Went to put on braces for my bottom set of teeth. And now my colour's turquoise! My bottom row is super ugly and [quote from dentist]congested[/quote from dentist]. So much so that it's gonna move much and, pain.

Whatever.
I'm amazed by the hits numbers! Hahahahaha! Not as crazy as xx's, but what the! Who are the 30 odd 40 people. Or maybe someone came here and spammed the refresh buttom. Wheee, hahaha?

:/

If you thought i was being happy, no i wasn't.

I think this ugly world is making me see nothing but my weaknesses. Sometimes, it's really sweet when people affirm you (i'm not hinting anything), and thus, i have decided to affirm people!

Hmm, idk, but i just think the world hates me. The way people look at me and stuff, yes, i do care a lot about how people view me. I just can sense people being so reluctant to talk to me, and oh well. If i ever tell you i don't care about what (inserts any name) say about me and how she/he thinks about me, i'm just trying to lie.




Lie lie lie. Sorry, that's the only thing i can do.










One part of me dreads going to science center (cause i can see gross people again), the other part tells me to look forward to it, because i can see danica and clara. :)




SOME LAME ASS GUY IS TALKING TO ME ON MSN.

Uh oh.

I realised how disgusting my blog was.


Anyway, i just had to cry during history. If you think crying proves that you're weak, i'll take on the other stand. Everybody thinks crying is a sign of failure, fragility. And because of that, no one dares to cry, no one wants to cry. I think it takes courage to cry, i was just too timid to try and hold it back.

Oh BTW, i was trying to say i'm brave. I'm more fragile for things like ghosts and any animals other than human. HAHAHA, believe me.




This term's PPR sucked again. Even though it's kind of a big improvement, i expected more. Today's math test was super screwed. Like i totally didn't know what i was doing at all! I simply wrote numbers and alphabets, and i seriously didn't bother to get the answer. I bet the only marks i would get is for the first few steps. No marks for answers at all.

What was i doing?



I'm having songs stuck in my head. Like, Kris's Ain't No Sunshine and Adam's Mad World. I thought it was their best song, and it really was. On the finale. <3 I have a fetish for Kris's mouth when he sings.

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the football before helping around the house.

3. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

4. A Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer quickly to No 9 for the meaning of nothing.)

5. That’s Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

6. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. (I want to add a clause here - This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’, which is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say ‘you’re welcome’ - that will bring on No. 7).

7. Whatever: Is a woman’s way of saying, “F— YOU!”

8. Don’t worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to No. 4.

9. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in “Fine”.

Grace (ho) was so sweet to write me a note and postcard to cheer me up. Anyway, :)

LQTM?

Advice: Don't look down on others.

Before they walk over you.




Anyway, just accept the fact that i possess moral ethics, winner.
















I am so #^$@! now. And yes i have an issue with everything in my life, and even my dad regrets bringing me us to this world. I hate it more than anyone else do, so stop judging me. I hate trying to change myself to suit everybody's needs and it is so redundant. I am trying, really.

Friends, now parents. I can never open up to them, neither will they understand. I don't really care if they cared anymore.

Faith

When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad cause I was blessed to get
To have you in my life

When I look back on these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

CHORUS:
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be

Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all
The strength you gave to me

Your love made me make it through
Oh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

CHORUS:
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be

Cause I always saw in you my light my strength
And I wanna thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me, you were right there for me
You were right there for me for always

CHORUS:
And in my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be a place for you for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be
There you'll be


Love you, Yammy & Yumin. And you.

Love that song, it's on repeat mode! :)


Anyway, you are supposed to tell me which polaroid to buy! :P

Gotta go immerse myself in tingxie, till then!

Perversed Face?

I really love the face, a lot! >:)




POLAROIDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!












This is $150. ): So ex!

Ammonia

I had totally let Ammonia engulf my little brain, today.

I had totally lost interest in education (except PE).

Back in primary one, i was forever excited to discover how many apples Mary had, how many balls Ali had, how many toy cars Kumar had.

And now, the mere sight of 2 arrows point north and eastwards just totally turns me off. Let alone the quadrilaterals in the midst of nowhere, asking you for the coordinates and proving here and there.

I think my mouth will be left ajar throughout math lessons next year.


Like who is still studying for your own interests? People are just studying for the sake of studying, even if given a choice, nobody in this society will give up education. Why? Because nobody wants to lag behind.

This competitive world just scares me. Getting back test papers just leaves the class in intense fear. Some fear of failure, some fear of their inability to score a distinction. Whatever it is, barely anyone is satisfied. Even getting 100/100 is ):, because they want a 101/100. Like please, get a life!


As for me, i study for practical reasons. To get through JC, get into University, get a degree, maybe attain a master or PhD, to get a good job, to get a good status. I think by the end of it, i would've regretted spending my life on things i was never interested in.






I NEED SOME ENTHUSIASM IN LIFE.


Ahhhhh! Spellcheck isn't working.


I aim to finish all my hols homework by the first week of hols, achievable? Yes!



What you said at the forum was just history, history which will never be now, never be ever, no?

IF YOU LIKE THROWING THINGS SO MUCH, THROW ME OUT OF THE HOUSE.

Means-testing, testing, testing, testing.

I was so sick of it.

Disappointed.

That's the only word i have for you.

Nostalgic.

Why can't a possess the natural ability to be a good friend. Why do i have to try so hard. Nobody appreciates it anyway.


My sis is so damn good, she has life. She keeps on going out like nobody's business while i'm emotionally caged at home. Well, at least she has life. And my mum blames me for it.


My true friend is someone who turns back to look at me, someone who listens to my cry instead of asking me to stop, someone who thinks about me before she sleeps, and that's definitely not you. :) Deal with it baby.


Next week is the grossest week of my life.



I've found out why i have a flaming passion for sleeping.
Because i'm tired of life.

When you're tired you sleep, no?

:)

Sometimes, things just don't work out when you don't sacrifice.

Anyway, true friends? Bullshit. I know when it actually ended, and well, at least i know one is true.


I am really happy today, not until now. I just hate reading people's blogs cause they really piss me off.

Go to hell.

Kris!

So yay, Kris won!



You left "Ain't No Sunshine" stuck in my head!



Departing for AI later. Gonna stuff SS into my head before letting it get blown away by him again. :P



It would just be an extra one following behind. In the past.


I need to find joy. Every night i lie on my bed, telling myself, "Today, you have failed yourself." And it's not like i never did anything to it. I'm pushing myself.

And these 2 weeks are so frigging packed up with last minute tests and assignments and gross school stuff. Holidays are never holidays to me. Training, camp, school work, i'm feeding on that for hols. I need to find time to do up my room, yeah.

Gonna complete my braces next saturday. More ulcers coming! D:



I have so much to say, but it's time to stop.

"If a friend allows the relationship to break because of a problem, then the person is not a friend to begin with."

Why is Miss Praba such a wise woman. And NOT old.

The whole english lesson set me thinking. A was initially against the topic, not until the word "friends" was defined - people you can trust and rely on.

:(

If i had a choice to migrate somewhere else, i'd be more than glad to! New and perhaps better life there, why not? Even if i had to leave a lot of things behind, i guess it's worth it to exchange for a better teenage life. Wait till i'm done with my responsibilities first. And it's not like my dad will ever send me overseas. :(

Even though i hate my class, people still care for me. Or rather, my eyes. I like changing seats. You get to mix around with more people, even though sometimes you hardly blend in. Like those sitting in front of me and beside, they are just so nice to me. They check my eyes, ask me to take my medicine, tell me to rest, helped me to plan a nice plan for me to get my geog graded from home via my sis. I'm so touched! Even though i still don't see the bond in our class, well at least they do care for each other.

I swear nobody was this caring towards me in my life, except my family.

Even though everything will just go back to the ugly normal, i just need this once. Just once is enough.





Each and everyday, i'm just getting more and more sick of the lame issue, and i've truely decided to not give a damn about it anymore. I give up. Nobody cares, neither do i. I shall just concentrate on my studies and commitment. Nothing else. Furthermore, everyone's happier this way, so why not spend my energy on consuming my froot loops instead.


All the while, it has been an odd number thing.





I wanna change my url soon. If you think you're smart, then dig out the url from me when i change it. If you are so obsessed with me, i suggest you be smart too. Otherwise, get a life, blog stalker.




Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on in.
Take time to realize that I am on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize,
Oh, oh, I'm on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
Take time to realize this all can pass you by.
Didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other oh.

It's not the same.
No, it's never the same,
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me halfway,
If you would meet me halfway,
It can be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder...

Just realize what I just realized,
If you just realize what I just realized... ooh ooh.
Missed out on each other now.
Missed out on each other now.

Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh.





Oh noooooooooo! My blog's going back to the emo state.

I miss you. :(

CANON

Yes baby!
That's my job.

AT CANON.

So gross right. I swore never to get an office job. So here am i. Stupid people go snatch away Furama. Fine, i admit i don't have such quicky fingers.

I hope it turns out fine! And they better give me pay!
$$$

Oh yes. Office wear.
LQTM.

Other jobs left are some other office work and pre-schools. Which are even grosser.




It seems so weird.
-sings "Never Like Before"-




I'm super drowsy now like wth! My medicine suck!



PS. There isn't a song called "Never Like Before".

Heaty!

HAHAHAHA, went home super early today because of my eyes.

That's beside the point.

Everytime i access the stupid internet, i see stupid blogs with stupid things. And it's just so, frustrating.

I always have what you said flashing in my mind. And i came across you commenting on my attitude. FYI, i was like what you were before. It's just you didn't had much chances of showing off your bad temper, because you never felt left out as much as i do, smart.








Yes, i can't let it go. I keep telling myself to keep focused in my own path, carry on walking straight, no matter how much i want to turn back. And now i'm walking alone, with nobody to spur me on, nobody to laugh with me, nobody to follow through the entire journey with me. All along was just imagination. I imagined you were there with me, but no. I know you're off in another path. And everytime i seem to see you, i just couldn't pour everything out. I know you're just my imagination, and who talks to air?

I tell myself i'm strong, i can walk alone, and i will never cry. Nobody shall see the weakest side of mine, not even myself. I'm trying hard to hang on, so stop trying to break me.

So what if i have a weak inside? I'm gonna strengthen it, so hard that my heart's like diamond, and nobody's gonna break it. Unless you can find the right spot to hit on, good for you. You'll have my heart.


And nobody shall underestimate a woman's strength.

Yes or not!

Get this, or not?
Comment me, anonymous or not! :)

I like it, but it's so attention catching! :////////////




ANYWAY, i can't stand Adam L. He's so gay, and IS a gay. He looks into the camera like he's gonna rape you if you don't vote for him. And, he's fat. Accept it. Danny is chubby. Kris is sexy.

AHAHAHAHAHA, Adam, i officially say that I. DISLIKE. YOU. Chew on that.

Danny had such a smexy voice. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.




PS. I don't watch American Idol, not until i watched A.I. MARATHON on Star World. Hahahahaha! And no, i'm not crazy over it now.

Red is the sex.

Zomgosh, everything is so red now.

A person in red shirt with red braces and red eyes lying on a red bed with plenty of red stuffs!





I need more colours.

I hate blue, blue should've never existed.











I look superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr retarded! With the hose! Waste waste water! >:)
Hmph, i was just reminded that washing toilet is a very fun thingy. :D But definitely NOT during BN, hahahahaha!


Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, what bag should i buy!

TODAY IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.









To think even youu walked out on me. I was (and still am) so shocked.
Why why why, why is it so difficult to find a trustworthy friend who will never leave you behind!

I guess my red eyes are blessing in disguise. You never know when the tears in it are a result of emotions or eye irritation.

Anyway, beware people, i may have swine. :)
Just heard on the radio influenza A can be contracted through eyes. And the symtom is...
-drum rolls-

RED EYES!


Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABELLINE TAN AND DANICA NG!

Live well and enjoy life! :D

Inter inter interview!

What's frigging wrong with wearing a dress, world!


INTERVIEW TODAY, and super screwed hahahahahaha!

Actually thinking on the spot was kinda fun, though, your brain is a little nerve-tied. And my english suck and i'm not good at words, so i may express a truck load of wrong things. Hahahahahaha! I was playing with my fingers, cause the atmosphere was so weird! But i reflected a lot during the interview though, about myself.

AND, i know my flaws people. I know how you answered the question, so cut it out. Stop being so hypocritical. I like the way i want to be PT, i'm not a great man with great ambitions for great power.

Hahaha, discipline. :P


I hate talking about life but i must say this. People who think that life is pointless because you never get out of it alive, are people who only look for results. People who think that it's how you live life well and make it fulfilling, are people who look for the experience.

Who are you?
I am someone who thinks life is very pointless. But sometimes, i really like the experience. Perhaps, i'm changing. I shouldn't let sucky things like school interrupt with my enjoyment in life. Let's enjoy life. :)